Ethics -- Fiction; Religion and sociology -- Fiction; Upper class families -- Fiction
The gardens were very different, now. The trees had burst forth again
into leaf, the spiraea bushes seemed weighted down with snow, and with a
note like that of the quivering bass string of a 'cello the bees hummed
among the fruit blossoms. And there beside me in her filmy dress
was Maude, a part of it all--the meaning of all that set my being
clamouring. She was like some ripened, delicious flower ready to be
picked.... One of those pernicious, make-believe volumes had fallen on
the bench between us, for I could not read any more; I could not think;
I touched her hand, and when she drew it gently away I glanced at her.
Reason made a valiant but hopeless effort to assert itself. Was I sure
that I wanted her--for life? No use! I wanted her now, no matter
what price that future might demand. An awkward silence fell between
us--awkward to me, at least--and I, her guide and mentor, became banal,
apologetic, confused. I made some idiotic remark about being together in
the Garden of Eden.
“I remember Mr. Doddridge saying in Bible class that it was supposed
to be on the Euphrates,” she replied. “But it's been destroyed by the
flood.”
“Let's make another--one of our own,” I suggested.
“Why, how silly you are this afternoon.”
“What's to prevent us--Maude?” I demanded, with a dry throat.
“Nonsense!” she laughed. In proportion as I lost poise she seemed to
gain it.
“It's not nonsense,” I faltered. “If we were married.”
At last the fateful words were pronounced--irrevocably. And, instead of
qualms, I felt nothing but relief, joy that I had been swept along by
the flood of feeling. She did not look at me, but gazed straight ahead
of her.
“If I love you, Maude?” I stammered, after a moment.
“But I don't love you,” she replied, steadily.
Never in my life had I been so utterly taken aback.
“Do you mean,” I managed to say, “that after all these months you don't
like me a little?”
“'Liking' isn't loving.” She looked me full in the face. “I like you
very much.”
“But--” there I stopped, paralyzed by what appeared to me the
quintessence of feminine inconsistency and caprice. Yet, as I stared at
her, she certainly did not appear capricious. It is not too much to
say that I was fairly astounded at this evidence of self-command and
decision, of the strength of mind to refuse me. Was it possible that she
had felt nothing and I all? I got to my feet.
“I hate to hurt your feelings,” I heard her say. “I'm very sorry.”...
She looked up at me. Afterwards, when reflecting on the scene, I seemed
to remember that there were tears in her eyes. I was not in a
condition to appreciate her splendid sincerity. I was overwhelmed and
inarticulate. I left her there, on the bench, and went back to George's,
announcing my intention of taking the five o'clock train....
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