"Ah, if I only could!" she said. "I could have once. But now I'm afraid--afraid of getting lost." Slowly she straightened up, her hands falling into her lap. I seized them again, I was on my knees in front of her, before the fire, and she, intent, looking down at me, into me, through me it seemed--at something beyond which yet was me. "Hugh," she asked, "what do you believe? Anything?" "What do I believe?" "Yes. I don't mean any cant, cut-and-dried morality. The world is getting beyond that. But have you, in your secret soul, any religion at all? Do you ever think about it? I'm not speaking about anything orthodox, but some religion--even a tiny speck of it, a germ--harmonizing with life, with that power we feel in us we seek to express and continually violate." "Nancy!" I exclaimed. "Answer me--answer me truthfully," she said.... I was silent, my thoughts whirling like dust atoms in a storm. "You have always taken things--taken what you wanted. But they haven't satisfied you, convinced you that that is all of life." "Do you mean--that we should renounce?" I faltered. "I don't know what I mean. I am asking, Hugh, asking. Haven't you any clew? Isn't there any voice in you, anywhere, deep down, that can tell me? give me a hint? just a little one?" I was wracked. My passion had not left me, it seemed to be heightened, and I pressed her hands against her knees. It was incredible that my hands should be there, in hers, feeling her. Her beauty seemed as fresh, as un-wasted as the day, long since, when I despaired of her. And yet and yet against the tumult and beating of this passion striving to throb down thought, thought strove. Though I saw her as a woman, my senses and my spirit commingled and swooned together. "This is life," I murmured, scarcely knowing what I said. "Oh, my dear!" she cried, and her voice pierced me with pain, "are we to be lost, overpowered, engulfed, swept down its stream, to come up below drifting--wreckage? Where, then, would be your power? I'm not speaking of myself. Isn't life more than that? Isn't it in us, too,--in you? Think, Hugh. Is there no god, anywhere, but this force we feel, restlessly creating only to destroy? You must answer--you must find out." I cannot describe the pleading passion in her voice, as though hell and heaven were wrestling in it. The woman I saw, tortured yet uplifted, did not seem to be Nancy, yet it was the woman I loved more than life itself and always had loved. "I can't think," I answered desperately, "I can only feel--and I can't express what I feel. It's mixed, it's dim, and yet bright and shining--it's you." "No, it's you," she said vehemently. "You must interpret it." Her voice sank: "Could it be God?" she asked. "God!" I exclaimed sharply.