“A husband and his love,” said Marrion, emphatically. “Would you say
you had a wife and that wife’s love, if half the time she was in no
condition to care for your home?”
“That is not a parallel case. Drinking in a man is not so bad, it is a
popular evil; more men drink than sin in any other way.”
“And all the other sins follow in its train.”
“You know, Latham, I am moral in the main. I need a stimulant; it is
something a brain worker must have. Besides----”
“Besides what?”
“I am not happy since I became so ambitious,” said Robert, gloomily,
and, continuing--“I cannot stand the bitterness of self-reproach. When
reason is wide awake, remorse fastens its fangs upon it. I--” His head
fell heavily upon the table, and he lay there in silent suffering.
“It is your yielding to temptation, more than your ambition, that hurts
a refined nature like yours; but as long as you can feel sorrow you are
not wholly bad.”
“I don’t know, Marrion, for brooding over this unfortunate habit I have
all unconsciously drifted into, sometimes drives me almost mad; it is
then that the tempter gets in his work. Something tells me there is
but one way to get swift relief--drink and forget.”
“But what of the wife? Does it speak to you of the wearing ache of
her waking--of the lonely hours of her watching alone, while your
conscience rests in soothing sleep?”
“Yes, I think of her love, her patience, but the best of us have our
faults, and a woman should not demand from the busy, anxious spirit of
man all that romance promises and life but rarely yields.”
“You have been blessed with one who demands nothing; she suffers in
silence. Her very gentleness, her patient womanliness should win you
to right. But, my friend, she pines for your attention--those little
things that would tell her she was appreciated. She is like a tendril,
accustomed to cling, which must have something to twine around, and
make wholly its own.”
“I never give her a cross word; I leave her to do as it best pleases
her.”
“There, that is the mistake. The secret of the danger lies in that one
act of yours. How many have I known, lovely and pure like your wife,
who have suffered their unguarded affections--the very beauty of their
nature--to destroy them.”
“That is true; I have known many such cases,” admitted Robert.
“Then, in the name of God, pull yourself together, man; brace up, I
will help you all I can.”
Robert raised his head:
“Marrion, I have never esteemed you half so much as I do now; your
interest is unselfish and sincere, I know that.”
“It is, Milburn, and I am glad you take it as I meant it. It has been
said, the loves and friendships of life are its sweetest resources.
All else--special achievements, creative genius in any form of
manifestation--ministers to them. To live in an atmosphere of sympathy
is to live in an atmosphere of heaven, and often it is true that a man
must hold his friends unjudged, accepted, trusted to the end.”
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