“By Heavens, this is atrocious!” cried Ferris. “Do you think ... Look
here!” he went on rudely. “I’ll put the case to you, and you shall judge
it. Remember that I was such a fool as to be in love with you. Suppose
Don Ippolito had told me that he was going to risk everything--going to
give up home, religion, friends--on the ten thousandth part of a chance
that you might some day care for him. I did not believe he had even so
much chance as that; but he had always thought me his friend, and he
trusted me. Was it a quibble that kept me from betraying him? I don’t
know what honor is among women; but no _man_ could have done it. I
confess to my shame that I went to your house that night longing to
betray him. And then suppose your mother sent me into the garden to call
you, and I saw ... what has made my life a hell of doubt for the last
two years; what ... No, excuse me! I can’t put the case to you after
all.”
“What do you mean?” asked Florida. “I don’t understand you!”
“What do I mean? You don’t understand? Are you so blind as that, or are
you making a fool of me? What could I think but that you had played with
that priest’s heart till your own”....
“Oh!” cried Florida with a shudder, starting away from him, “did you
think I was such a wicked girl as that?”
It was no defense, no explanation, no denial; it simply left the case
with Ferris as before. He stood looking like a man who does not know
whether to bless or curse himself, to laugh or blaspheme.
She stooped and tried to pick up the things she had let fall upon
the floor; but she seemed not able to find them. He bent over, and,
gathering them together, returned them to her with his left hand,
keeping the other in the breast of his coat.
“Thanks,” she said; and then after a moment, “Have you been hurt?” she
asked timidly.
“Yes,” said Ferris in a sulky way. “I have had my share.” He glanced
down at his arm askance. “It’s rather conventional,” he added. “It isn’t
much of a hurt; but then, I wasn’t much of a soldier.”
The girl’s eyes looked reverently at the conventional arm; those were
the days, so long past, when women worshipped men for such things. But
she said nothing, and as Ferris’s eyes wandered to her, he received a
novel and painful impression. He said, hesitatingly, “I have not asked
before: but your mother, Miss Vervain--I hope she is well?”
“She is dead,” answered Florida, with stony quiet.
They were both silent for a time. Then Ferris said, “I had a great
affection for your mother.”
“Yes,” said the girl, “she was fond of you, too. But you never wrote or
sent her any word; it used to grieve her.”
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