Don Ippolito spoke in Italian, and he uttered these words in a voice
carefully guarded from every listener but the one before his face. “Do
you know what it is when such a moment as this comes, and you would
fling away the whole fabric of falsehood that has clothed your life--do
you know what it is to keep still so much of it as will help you to
unmask silently and secretly? It is to be a priest!”
His voice had lost its vehemence, and his manner was strangely subdued
and cold. The sort of gentle apathy it expressed, together with a
certain sad, impersonal surprise at the difference between his own and
the happier fortune with which he contrasted it, was more touching than
any tragic demonstration.
As if she felt the fascination of the pathos which she could not fully
analyze, the young girl sat silent. After a time, in which she seemed to
be trying to think it all out, she asked in a low, deep murmur: “Why did
you become a priest, then?”
“It is a long story,” said Don Ippolito. “I will not trouble you with it
now. Some other time.”
“No; now,” answered Florida, in English. “If you hate so to be a priest,
I can’t understand why you should have allowed yourself to become one.
We should be very unhappy if we could not respect you,--not trust you as
we have done; and how could we, if we knew you were not true to yourself
in being what you are?”
“Madamigella,” said the priest, “I never dared believe that I was in the
smallest thing necessary to your happiness. Is it true, then, that
you care for my being rather this than that? That you are in the least
grieved by any wrong of mine?”
“I scarcely know what you mean. How could we help being grieved by what
you have said to me?”
“Thanks; but why do you care whether a priest of my church loves his
calling or not,--you, a Protestant? It is that you are sorry for me as
an unhappy man, is it not?”
“Yes; it is that and more. I am no Catholic, but we are both
Christians”--
Don Ippolito gave the faintest movement of his shoulders.
--“and I cannot endure to think of your doing the things you must do as
a priest, and yet hating to be a priest. It is terrible!”
“Are all the priests of your faith devotees?”
“They cannot be. But are none of yours so?”
“Oh, God forbid that I should say that. I have known real saints among
them. That friend of mine in Padua, of whom I once told you, became
such, and died an angel fit for Paradise. And I suppose that my poor
uncle is a saint, too, in his way.”
“Your uncle? A priest? You have never mentioned him to us.”
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