Don Ippolito stood listening with a patient, and then a wounded air.
“Nothing,” he answered proudly. “I ask your pardon for troubling you
with my affairs. Your former kindness emboldened me too much. I shall
not trespass again. It was my ignorance, which I pray you to excuse. I
take my leave, signore.”
He bowed, and moved out of the room, and a dull remorse filled the
painter, as he heard the outer door close after him. But he could do
nothing. If he had given a wound to the heart that trusted him, it was
in an anguish which he had not been able to master, and whose causes he
could not yet define. It was all a shapeless torment; it held him like
the memory of some hideous nightmare prolonging its horror beyond sleep.
It seemed impossible that what had happened should have happened.
It was long, as he sat in the chair from which he had talked with Don
Ippolito, before he could reason about what had been said; and then the
worst phase presented itself first. He could not help seeing that the
priest might have found cause for hope in the girl’s behavior toward
him. Her violent resentments, and her equally violent repentances; her
fervent interest in his unhappy fortunes, and her anxiety that he should
at once forsake the priesthood; her urging him to go to America, and her
promising him a home under her mother’s roof there: why might it not all
be in fact a proof of her tenderness for him? She might have found
it necessary to be thus coarsely explicit with him, for a man in
Don Ippolito’s relation to her could not otherwise have imagined
her interest in him. But her making use of Ferris to confirm her own
purposes by his words, her repeating them so that they should come back
to him from Don Ippolito’s lips, her letting another man go with her to
look upon the procession in which her priestly lover was to appear in
his sacerdotal panoply; these things could not be accounted for except
by that strain of insolent, passionate defiance which he had noted ill
her from the beginning. Why should she first tell Don Ippolito of their
going away? “Well, I wish him joy of his bargain,” said Ferris aloud,
and rising, shrugged his shoulders, and tried to cast off all care of a
matter that did not concern him. But one does not so easily cast off a
matter that does not concern one. He found himself haunted by certain
tones and looks and attitudes of the young girl, wholly alien to
the character he had just constructed for her. They were child-like,
trusting, unconscious, far beyond anything he had yet known in women,
and they appealed to him now with a maddening pathos. She was standing
there before Don Ippolito’s picture as on that morning when she came
to Ferris, looking anxiously at him, her innocent beauty, troubled
with some hidden care, hallowing the place. Ferris thought of the young
fellow who told him that he had spent three months in a dull German town
because he had the room there that was once occupied by the girl who had
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