His suspiciousness, however, grew by leaps and bounds during his sojourn
in London. Every day he threw out hints against some new person or some
fresh imaginary conspiracy. There was a plot brewing, he informed
me, among various false comrades to ruin him. He was the victim of a
conspiracy to deprive him of his liberty and perhaps even of his life.
Not a day passed but some covert threat was made against him; men whom
he had believed his comrades, and to whom he--fool that he was!--had
confided the deadliest secrets in the past, had given him to understand
the power they held over him, and had made it clear that they would
avail themselves of it should it serve their purpose. "What fools
we Anarchists are," he exclaimed to me one day, "ever to feel any
confidence in any one! We are no longer free men when we have done this.
We are slaves."
I watched the progress of this monomania with painful interest, for
among all the Anarchists there was no individual for whom I entertained
a more genuine regard than for Giannoli. One of the worst aspects of
the matter, moreover, was that I was really unable to judge how far
Giannoli's suspicions were true and how far imaginary. As to his
sincerity there was no possibility of doubt, and this lent to all he
said an air of verisimilitude which was most convincing. I did not know
the majority of the other Italians well enough to feel positive as to
their honesty, and many of them were uncertain and somewhat suspicious
characters. Morì, for instance--the youthful Neapolitan already referred
to, the enigmatic "buttered muffin"--was quite incomprehensible. He was
a youth of no particular intelligence, and certainly of no ideality or
genuine political or anti-political convictions, and I was quite at a
loss to conjecture why he had followed the Anarchists into exile--his
only apparent reason being a disinclination to study and a desire to
escape from school. When Giannoli informed me that he was a police-spy I
really did not know whether to believe him or not.
And as the weeks passed on, Giannoli's condition grew worse and worse,
and I could see that a crisis must inevitably follow. Nor was I mistaken
in this conviction.
Late one afternoon, towards the end of September, I was busy in the
printing-room "making up" the pages of the forthcoming number of the
_Tocsin_, when, looking up from my work on which I was very intent, I
saw Giannoli walk in hurriedly with his usual restless step, and look
about the place in a nervous short-sighted way, evidently in search of
somebody. He was just about to leave again, not having noticed me, when
I called to him. "Oh, Isabel," he replied, evidently much relieved, "are
you here then!" and he came up to me. "I did not see you!" and then,
casting a glance round the room, he inquired, "Are we quite alone?"
"There are others upstairs," I answered. "If you wish to speak to me
alone I will come to your room a little later, when I have finished this
work."
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