Girton College (University of Cambridge) -- Fiction; Women college students -- Fiction
‘And your hopes of these things,’ her lips whitened as she repeated the
words, ‘were madness? Singular contradiction! You have told me that
yours has been a secluded student’s life, that, until a fortnight ago,
you never cared for any society but that of men?’
‘Whatever I have told you has been true,’ said Geff, with firmness.
Then, instantly relenting, ‘Do not let us have a quarrel,’ he pleaded,
‘on this first day that we are sweethearts.’
She turned from him, indignant, breathless.
‘If we quarrel over realities, Mr. Arbuthnot, the pity is we did not
look realities in the face before becoming sweethearts.’
‘Miss Bartrand--Marjorie!’
‘Oh, I am thoroughly in earnest. This morning, when first I knew you
cared for me a little, I was open with you. I told you what had to be
said about Major Tredennis, and you forgave me. Bluebeard secrets, bad
always, must be doubly so between people who mean to spend their lives
together. I told you of my miserable weakness----’
Her frank girlish face burned so hotly that Geff came to her relief.
‘You were very open with me, Marjorie, true and straightforward, as it
is your nature to be.’
‘I did not hide from you, whatever the shame of it, that I had bound
myself once before.’
Geoffrey was no social diplomatist. He might, otherwise, with mournful
veracity have retorted that he had been a free man always. But the
statement would have implied a prevarication, and it was not in
Geoffrey Arbuthnot’s upright soul to prevaricate.
‘You told me you had been engaged. You also gave an opinion as to its
being impossible for people, honestly, to love twice.’
‘Most certainly I did. I never cared more for Major Tredennis than I do
for this flower I wear--ask Mrs. Arbuthnot! I found courage yesterday
to talk to her about that wretched time--and I _do_ care for you,’
looking straight from her heart at her lover. ‘And it is utterly
impossible for any woman or any man to love twice.’
‘You think so? I ought to have disagreed with you at once,’ struck in
Geff, promptly. ‘I ought to have told you this morning what I hold to
be truth.’
‘And this is?’
‘That women and men may love a second time honestly, although once,
only, with success.’
She turned away doubtfully, with lowered lids, hesitating a few
moments. Then: ‘Love twice? and why not love three, four, five times?’
she questioned, looking up at him with a glance of fire. ‘Why hold at
all by constancy, or honour, or good faith? What mystic limitation is
there in the number two?’
‘A woman troubled is Heaven’s fairest work spoiled.’
Geoffrey believed as devoutly as do most men in the aphorism. But
Marjorie was not a woman, he remembered, only an impetuous girl, with
Southern blood in her veins, with the Bartrand pride on her lips, with
all sweet and modest and maidenly superstitions in her heart.
He felt he had never loved her more dearly than in this very outburst
of unreasoning, childish wrath against himself.
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