She heard him with pain and bewilderment.
'All this must, and shall, be fully explained,' said Clare, with her
dark eyes swimming in tears.
'I doubt it.'
'Doubt not!' said she, firmly, 'and, dear Jerry, promise me that you
will forget your quarrel with Ida, and visit us again at Christmas;
papa and--and Lady Evelyn will be home long before that. Do you
promise?'
'I promise you, Clare--dear Clare, you were ever my friend,' said he,
in a broken voice, as he kissed her hand, and would have kissed her
cheek, perhaps, but for the servants who stood by; and in half an
hour afterwards the train was sweeping him onward to London.
'I had hoped, Ida, that Jerry Vane's visit would have had a different
termination than this,' said Clare, the moment she got her sister
alone. 'Why, you have actually quarrelled.'
'No, not quarrelled,' urged Ida.
'What then?'
'Parted coldly, certainly.'
'Why did you not keep your appointment with him?'
Again the expression that Vane had seen on her face--pain and
embarrassment, sorrow and bewilderment, were all visible to Clare,
who had to repeat the question three times; then Ida said:
'As he himself has told you, he accused me--me--of meeting another,
and I was almost bluntly accused thus, Clare, when--when I was
certainly beginning to feel that I might love him with the emotion
that I deemed dead in my heart and impossible to resuscitate.'
'All this seems most inexplicable to me!' said Clare, with the
smallest expression of irritation in her tone. 'Poor Jerry! he loves
you very truly, Ida, and sorely indeed has that love been tested.'
'He loved me because he believed in me; that regard will cease when
he ceases to believe, as he has done, through some insulting
suspicion, the source or cause of which is utterly beyond my
conception,' said Ida, wearily and sadly. Then she threw an arm
round the waist of Clare, and lying on her sister's breast, said in a
low voice, 'Another seems to hold me by bonds that will never be
unloosed, Clare.'
'_Another_, Ida!'
'Beverley.'
'What madness is this?' asked Clare, regarding her sister's face with
great and deep anxiety.
'I loved Beverley as I never loved Jerry; it was, indeed, the passion
which Scott describes as given by God alone:
'"It is the secret sympathy,
The silver link, the silken tie,
Which heart to heart and mind to mind
_In body and in soul can bind_."
Beverley's last words were that we should meet again; and we have met
again--nay, seem to be always meeting in my thoughts by day and
dreams by night; but always the memory of him was most vivid when
Jerry Vane was near me or in my mind.'
'How will all this end?' said Clare, in a voice of sorrow. 'I would
that papa were here.'
'He had never much sympathy with, or toleration for, my grief, and
now that it is passing away, he would have still less with these
secret thoughts or strange impressions I have told to you, dear
Clare, and even hinted at to Trevor Chute.'
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account