But in the old human way I have taken advantage of his necessities.
The north wind has been by friend against him. I have called
in the aid of sleets and snows, have besieged him in his white
castle behind the glittering array of his icicles with threats of
starvation. So one day, dropping like a glowing coal down among
the other birds, he snatched a desperate hasty meal from the public
poor-house table that I had spread under the trees.
It is the first surrender that decides. Since then some progress
has been made in winning his confidence, but the struggle going on
in his nature is plain enough still. At times he will rush away
from me in utter terror; at others he lets me draw a little nearer,
a little nearer, without moving form a limb; and now, after a month
of persuasion, he begins to discredit the experience which he has
inherited from centuries upon centuries of ancestors. In all that
I have done I have tried to say to him: "Don't judge me by mankind
in general. With me you are safe. I pledge myself to defend you
from enemies, high and low."
This had not escaped the notice of Georgiana at the window, and more
than once she had let her work drop to watch my patient progress
and to bestow upon me a rewarding smile. Is there nearly always
sadness in it, or is the sadness in my eyes? If Georgiana's brother
is giving her trouble, I'd like to take a hand-axe to _his_ feet.
I suppose I shall never know whether he cut her foot in two. She
carries the left one a little peculiarly; but so many women do
that.
Sometimes, when the day's work is over and the servant is gone,
Georgiana comes to the window and looks away towards the sunsets
of winter, her hands clasped behind her back, her motionless figure
in relief against the darkness within, her face white and still.
Being in the shadow of my own room, so that she could not see me,
and knowing that I ought not to do it, but unable to resist, I have
softly taken up the spy-glass which I use in the study of birds,
and have drawn Georgiana's face nearer to me, holding it there
till she turns away. I have noted the traces of pain, and once
the tears which she could not keep back and was too proud to heed.
Then I have sat before my flickering embers, with I know not what
all but ungovernable yearning to be over there in the shadowy room
with her, and, whether she would or not, to fold my arms around
her, and, drawing her face against mine, whisper: "What is it
Georgiana? And why must it be?"
XIII
The fountains of the great deep opened. A new heaven, a new earth.
Georgiana has broken her engagement with her cousin. Mrs. Cobb let
it out in the strictest confidence to Mrs. Walters. Mrs. Walters,
with stricter confidence still, has told me only.
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