When he was gone I called, in an undertone: "Georgiana! Come to
the window! Please! Oh, Georgiana!"
But the song went on. What was the matter? I could not endure
it. There was one way by which perhaps she could be brought. I
whistled long and loud again and again. The curtains parted a
little space.
"I was merely whistling to the _bird_," I said.
"I knew it," she answered, looking as I had never seen her.
"Whenever you speak to _him_ your voice is full of confidence and
of love. I believe in it and like to hear it."
"What do you mean, Georgiana?" I cried, imploringly.
"Ah, Adam!" she said, with a rush of feeling. It was the first time
she had ever called me by name. She bent her face down. Over it
there passed a look of sweetness and sadness indescribably blended.
"Ah, Adam! you have asked me many times to _marry_ you! Make me
believe once that you _love_ me! Make me feel that I could trust
myself to you for life!"
"What else can I do?" I answered, stirred to the deepest that was
in me, throwing my arms backward, and standing with an open breast
into which she might gaze.
And she did search my eyes and face in silence.
"What more," I cried again, "in God's name?"
She rested her face on her palm, looking thoughtfully across the
yard. Over there the red-bird was singing. Suddenly she leaned
down towards me. Love was on her face now. But her eyes held
mine with the determination to wrest from them the last truth they
might contain, and her voice trembled with doubt:
"Would you put the red-bird in a cage for me? Would you be willing
to do that for me, Adam?"
At those whimsical, cruel words I shall never be able to reveal
all that I felt--the surprise, the sorrow, the pain. Scenes of
boyhood flashed through my memory. A conscience built up through
years of experience stood close by me with admonition. I saw the
love on her face, the hope with which she hung upon my reply, as
though it would decide everything between us. I did not hesitate;
my hands dropped to my side, the warmth died out of my heart as
out of spent ashes, and I answered her, with cold reproach,
"I--will--not!"
The color died out of her face also. Her eyes still rested on
mine, but now with pitying sadness.
"I feared it," she murmured, audibly, but to herself, and the
curtains fell together.
Four days have passed. Georgiana has cast me off. Her curtains
are closed except when she is not there. I have tried to see her;
she excuses herself. I have written; my letters come back unread.
I have lain in wait for her on the streets; she will not talk with
me. The tie between us has been severed. With her it could never
have been affection.
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