"Let me see things clearly!"
"You have a lifetime in which to see things clearly," I answered.
"How can that concern me now?" And I passed on into the house.
During the morning I wandered restless. For a while I lay on the
grass down behind the pines. How deep and clear are the covered
springs of memory! All at once it was a morning in my boyhood on
my father's farm. I, a little Saul of Tarsus among the birds, was
on my way to the hedge-rows and woods, as to Damascus, breathing
out threatenings and slaughter. Then suddenly the childish miracle,
which no doubt had been preparing silently within my nature, wrought
itself out; for from the distant forest trees, from the old orchard,
from thicket and fence, from the wide green meadows, and down out
of the depths of the blue sky itself, a vast chorus of innocent
creatures sang to my newly opened ears the same words: "Why
persecutest thou me?" One sang it with indignation; another with
remonstrance; still another with resignation; others yet with
ethereal sadness or wild elusive pain. Once more the house-wren
aloud, "_per-se-cu-test--per-se-cu-test--per-se-cu-test--per-se-cu-test_!"
And as I peeped into the brush-pile, again the brown thrush, building
within, said, "_thou--thou--thou_!"
Through all the years since I had thought myself changed, and craved
no greater glory than to be accounted the chief of their apostles.
But now I was stained once more with the old guilt, and once more
I could hear the birds in my yard singing that old, old chorus
against man's inhumanity.
Towards the middle of the afternoon I went away across the country--by
any direction; I cared not what. On my way back I passed through
a large rear lot belonging to my neighbors, and adjoining my own,
in which is my stable. There has lately been imported into this
part of Kentucky from England the much-prized breed of the beautiful
white Berkshire. As I crossed the lot, near the milk-trough,
ash-heap, and paring of fruit and vegetables thrown from my neighbor's
kitchen, I saw a litter of these pigs having their awkward sport
over some strange red plaything, which one after another of them
would shake with all its might, root and tear at, or tread into
greater shapelessness. It was all there was left of him.
I entered my long yard. If I could have been spared the sight
of that! The sun was setting. Around me was the last peace and
beauty of the world. Through a narrow avenue of trees I could see
my house, and on its clustering vines fell the angry red of the
sun darting across the cool green fields.
The last hour of light touches the birds as it touches us. When
they sing in the morning, it is with the happiness of the earth;
but as the shadows fall strangely about them, and the helplessness
of the night comes on, their voices seem to be lifted up like the
loftiest poetry of the human spirit, with sympathy for realities
and mysteries past all understanding.
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