When she found herself among the great coal-owners, she was neither
happy nor pleased. They could only talk of coal, and of those who had
been made or ruined by it. “As my mind is not naturally set to this
tune,” she wrote to Mr. Benjamin Stillingfleet, “I should often be glad
to change it for a song from one of your Welsh bards.” She, however,
intended to turn the occasion to intellectual profit by exploring the
country, and studying its beauties and natural productions, but a little
fainting fit put an end to this design. An overzealous maid went to her
aid, when fainting, with a bottle of eau-de-luce, but as she emptied the
contents into Mrs. Montagu’s throat, instead of applying it outwardly
for refreshment, the lady was nigh upon being then and there deprived
of upwards of forty years of life. She happily recovered, and by and by
she speaks of herself, in London, as “going wherever two or three fools
were gathered together, to assemblies, visiting-days etc. Twenty-four
idle hours, without a leisure one among them!” So she said; but an order
to Mrs. Denoyer, at the Golden Bible, Lisle Street, for a hundred of
the best pens and half a ream of the finest and thinnest quarto paper,
indicates how many hours of the twenty-four were employed. She thought,
or she affected to think, that she grew idler as she grew older. In one
of her letters to old Doctor Monsey,—a grotesque savage and scholar,
who, in lugubrious jokery, wrote love-letters (which she pretended to
take seriously) at fourscore,—she said, in September, 1757, just before
her thirty-seventh birthday: “I shall write to you again when I am
thirty-seven; but I am now engaged in a sort of death-bed repentance for
the idleness of the thirty-sixth year of my age!” She certainly took a
wrong view of her case when she further said: “Having spent the first
part of my life in female vanities, the rest in domestic employments,
I seem as if I had been measuring ribbons in a milliner’s, or counting
pennyworths of figs and weighing sugar-candy in a grocer’s shop all my
life.” This was no affectation. “If you envy me,” she added, “or know any
one who does, pray tell them this sad truth. Nothing can be more sad.
Nothing can be more true.”
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