American fiction -- 19th century; Manners and customs -- Fiction
he had determined a twelvemonth before not to marry until, by some means
or another, he should have evoked a sufficient income, no great change
had taken place in his fortunes. He was still a poor man and an
unsettled one; he was still awaiting his real vocation. Moreover, while
subject to the chances of war, he doubted his right to engage a woman's
affections: he shrank in horror from the thought of making a widow. Miss
Whittaker was one in five thousand. Before the luminous fact of her
existence, his dim ideal of the desirable wife had faded into vapor. But
should he allow this fact to invalidate all the stern precepts of his
reason? He could no more afford to marry a rich woman than a poor one.
When he should have earned a subsistence for two, then he would be free
to marry whomsoever he might fancy,--a beggar or an heiress. The truth
is, that the Captain was a great deal too proud. It was his fault that
he could not bring himself to forget the difference between his poverty
and Gertrude's wealth. He would of course have resented the insinuation
that the superior fortune of the woman he loved should really have force
to prevent him from declaring his love; but there is no doubt that in
the case before us this fact arrested his passion in its origin. Severn
had a most stoical aversion to being in debt. It is certain that, after
all, he would have made a very graceful debtor to his mistress or his
wife; but while a woman was as yet neither his mistress nor his wife,
the idea of being beholden to her was essentially distasteful to him. It
would have been a question with one who knew him, whether at this
juncture this frigid instinct was destined to resist the warmth of
Gertrude's charms, or whether it was destined gradually to melt away.
There would have been no question, however, but that it could maintain
itself only at the cost of great suffering to its possessor. At this
moment, then, Severn had made up his mind that Gertrude was not for him,
and that it behooved him to be sternly vigilant both of his impulses and
his impressions. That Miss Whittaker, with a hundred rational cares, was
anything less than supremely oblivious of him, individually, it never
occurred to him to suspect. The truth is, that Gertrude's private and
personal emotions were entertained in a chamber of her heart so remote
from the portals of speech that no sound of their revelry found its way
into the world. She constantly thought of her modest, soldierly,
scholarly friend as of one whom a wise woman might find it very natural
to love. But what was she to him? A local roadside figure,--at the very
most a sort of millionaire Maud Muller,--with whom it was pleasant for a
lonely wayfarer to exchange a friendly "good-morning." Her duty was to
fold her arms resignedly, to sit quietly on the sofa, and watch a great
happiness sink below the horizon. With this impression on Gertrude's
part it is not surprising that Severn was not wrenched out of himself.
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