A Lear of the Steppes, etc.Turgenev, Ivan Sergeevich
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A Lear of the Steppes, etc.
Turgenev, Ivan Sergeevich
Russia -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Turgenev, Ivan Sergeevich, 1818-1883 -- Translations into English
‘Visitors, it seems,’ I thought. Losing every hope of seeing Vera, I
made my way out of the garden and walked with rapid steps homewards.
It was a dark September night, but warm and windless. The feeling,
not so much of annoyance as of sadness, which had taken possession of
me, gradually disappeared, and I got home, rather tired from my rapid
walk, but soothed by the peacefulness of the night, happy and almost
light-hearted. I went to my room, dismissed Timofay, and without
undressing, flung myself on my bed and plunged into reverie.
At first my day-dreams were sweet, but soon I noticed a curious change
in myself. I began to feel a sort of secret gnawing anxiety, a sort of
deep, inward uneasiness. I could not understand what it arose from,
but I began to feel sick and sad, as though I were menaced by some
approaching trouble, as though some one dear to me were suffering at
that instant and calling on me for help. A wax candle on the table
burnt with a small, steady flame, the pendulum swung with a heavy,
regular tick. I leant my head on my hand and fell to gazing into
the empty half-dark of my lonely room. I thought of Vera, and my
heart failed me; all, at which I had so rejoiced, struck me, as it
ought to have done, as unhappiness, as hopeless ruin. The feeling
of apprehension grew and grew; I could not lie still any longer; I
suddenly fancied again that some one was calling me in a voice of
entreaty.… I raised my head and shuddered; I had not been mistaken; a
pitiful cry floated out of the distance and rang faintly resounding
on the dark window-panes. I was frightened; I jumped off the bed; I
opened the window. A distinct moan broke into the room and, as it
were, hovered about me. Chilled with terror, I drank in its last dying
echoes. It seemed as though some one were being killed in the distance
and the luckless wretch were beseeching in vain for mercy. Whether it
was an owl hooting in the wood or some other creature that uttered this
wail, I did not think to consider at the time, but, like Mazeppa, I
called back in answer to the ill-omened sound.
‘Vera, Vera!’ I cried; ‘is it you calling me?’ Timofay, sleepy and
amazed, appeared before me.
I came to my senses, drank a glass of water, and went into another
room; but sleep did not come to me. My heart throbbed painfully though
not rapidly. I could not abandon myself to dreams of happiness again; I
dared not believe in it.
Next day, before dinner, I went to the Priemkovs’. Priemkov met me with
a care-worn face.
‘My wife is ill,’ he began; ‘she is in bed; I sent for a doctor.’
‘What is the matter with her?’
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