A Life for a Life, Volume 3 (of 3)Craik, Dinah Maria Mulock
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A Life for a Life, Volume 3 (of 3)
Craik, Dinah Maria Mulock
Fiction
Miss Johnston's answer I received this morning. It was merely an
envelope containing a bank note of 20L. Sir William's gift, possibly; I
told her he had better be made aware of his nephew's abject state,--or
do you suppose it is from herself? I thought beyond your quarterly
allowance, you had none of you much ready money? If there is anything I
ought to know before applying this sum to the use of Mr. Charteris, you
will, of course, tell me?
I have been to see him this afternoon. It is a poor room he lies in, but
clean and quiet. He will not stir out of it; it was with difficulty
I persuaded him to have the window opened, so that we might enjoy the
still autumn sunshine, the church-bells, and the little robin's song.
Turning back to the sickly drawn face, buried in the sofa-pillows,
my heart smote me with a heavy doubt as to what was to be the end of
Francis Charteris.
Yet I do not think he will die; but he will be months, years
in recovering, even if he is ever his old self again--bodily, I
mean-whether his inner self is undergoing any change, I have small means
of judging. The best thing for him, both mentally and physically, would
be a fond, good woman's constant care; but that he cannot have.
I need scarcely say, I have taken every precaution that he should never
see nor hear anything of Lydia; nor she of him. He has never named her,
nor any one; past and future seem alike swept out of his mind; he only
lives in the miserable present, a helpless, hopeless, exacting invalid.
Not on any account would I have Lydia Cartwright see him now. If I judge
her countenance rightly, she is just the girl to do exactly what you
women are so prone to--forgive everything, sacrifice everything, and
go back to the old love. Ah! Theodora, what am I that I should dare to
speak thus lightly of women's love, women's forgiveness!
I am glad Mr. Johnston allows you occasionally to see Mrs. Cartwright
and the child, and that the little fellow is so well cared by his
grandmother. If, with his father's face, he inherits his father's
temperament, the nervously sensitive organization of a modern
"gentleman," as opposed to the healthy animalism of a working man, life
will be an uphill road to that poor boy.
His mother's heart aches after him sorely at times, as I can plainly
perceive. Yesterday, I saw her stand watching the line of female
convicts--those with infants--as one after the other they filed out,
each with her baby in her arms, and passed into the exercising-ground.
Afterwards, I watched her slip into one of the empty cells, fold up a
child's cap that had been left lying about, and look at it wistfully, as
if she almost envied the forlorn occupant of that dreary nook, where,
at least, the mother had her child with her continually. Poor Lydia! she
may have been a girl of weak will, easily led astray, but I am convinced
that the only thing which led her astray must have been, and will always
be, her affections.
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