Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Older men -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
Perpetua makes a rapid movement toward a side table, takes a flower from
a bouquet there, and throws it at the professor. There is no excuse to
be made for her beyond the fact that her heart feels breaking, and
people with broken hearts do strange things every day.
"I would give a flower to _anyone_!" says she in a quick scornful
fashion. The professor catches the ungraciously given gift, toys with
it, and--keeps it. Is that small action of his unseen?
"I hope," he says in a dull way, "that you are not angry with him
because he came first to me. It was a sense of duty--I know, I
_feel_--compelled him to do it, together with his honest diffidence
about your affection for him. Do not let pride stand in the way of----"
"Nonsense!" says Perpetua, with a rapid movement of her hand. "Pride has
no part in it. I do not care for Mr. Hardinge--I shall not marry him."
A little mist seems to gather before the professor's eyes. His glasses
seem in the way, he drops them, and now stands gazing at her as if
disbelieving his senses. In fact he does disbelieve in them.
"Are you sure?" persists he. "Afterwards you may regret----"
"Oh, no!" says she, shaking her head. "_Mr. Hardinge_ will not be the
one to cause me regret."
"Still think----"
"Think! Do you imagine I have not been thinking?" cries she, with sudden
passion. "Do you imagine I do not know why you plead his cause so
eloquently? You want to get _rid_ of me. You are _tired_ of me. You
always thought me heartless, about my poor father even, and unloving,
and--hateful, and----"
"Not heartless; what have I done, Perpetua, that you should say that?"
"Nothing. That is what I _detest_ about you. If you said outright what
you were thinking of me, I could bear it better."
"But my thoughts of you. They are----" He pauses. What _are_ they? What
are his thoughts of her at all hours, all seasons? "They are always
kind," says he, lamely, in a low tone, looking at the carpet. That
downward glance condemns him in her eyes--to her it is but a token of
his guilt towards her.
"They are _not_!" says she, with a little stamp of her foot that makes
the professor jump. "You think of me as a cruel, wicked, worldly girl,
who would marry _anyone_ to gain position."
Here her fury dies away. It is overcome by something stronger. She
trembles, pales, and finally bursts into a passion of tears that have no
anger in them, only an intense grief.
"I do not," says the professor, who is trembling too, but whose
utterance is firm. "Whatever my thoughts are, _your_ reading of them is
entirely wrong."
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