"Listen Jason," he said. "The walls you've built around the
settlement weren't meant to keep you from going outside. You're not
a self-sufficient little community ... you're cut off from mankind's
memory, from his dreams, from his ambitions. You can't even start to
rebuild a civilization--and if you do try, don't you think the people
outside will learn about it? Don't you think they've got a right to
share in whatever progress the settlement makes? And if you don't let
them, don't you realize that they'll destroy the settlement?"
Silence.
* * * * *
"I'm a historian," Tom continued, "and I know that a civilization
can't exist in a vacuum. If outsiders don't conquer it, it'll rot from
within. It's happened to Babylonia, Greece, Rome, China, even. Over and
again. The Soviets built an Iron Curtain around themselves, and wiped
themselves out because of it.
"Don't you see, Jason? There are only two types of animals on this
planet: the gamblers and the extinct. It won't be easy to live with
the outsiders, there'll be problems of every type. But the alternative
is decay and destruction. _You've got to take the chance, if you don't
you're dead._"
A long silence. Finally Jason said, "You've only got about a
half-hour's worth of oxygen left. Will you tow the satellite into the
proper position?"
Tom stared at the planet unseeingly. "Yes," he mumbled.
"I'll have to check some calculations with the astronomers," Jason's
voice buzzed flatly in his earphones.
A background murmur, scarcely audible over the crackling static.
Then Ruth's voice broke through, "Tom, Tom, you can't do this! You
won't be able to get back!"
"I know," he said, as he started pulling his way along the lifeline
back to the ship.
"_No!_ Come back, Tom, please. Come back. Forget the satellite. Come
back and explore the cities. I'll go with you. Please. Don't die, Tom,
please don't die...."
"Ruth, Ruth, you're too young to cry over me. I'll be all right, don't
worry."
"No, it isn't fair."
"It never is," Tom said. "Listen, Ruth. I've been dead a long time.
Since the bombs fell, I guess. My world died then and I died with it.
When I came to the settlement, when I agreed to make this flight, I
think we all knew I'd never return, even if we wouldn't admit it to
ourselves. But I'm just one man, Ruth, one small part of the story. The
story goes on, with or without me. There's tomorrow ... your tomorrow.
I've got no place in it, but it belongs to you. So don't waste your
time crying over a man who died eighteen years ago."
He snapped off his suit radio and went the rest of the way to the ship
in silence. After locking the hatch and pumping air back into the
cabin, he took off his helmet.
_Good clean canned air_, Tom said to himself. _Too bad it won't last
longer._
* * * * *
He sat down and flicked a switch on the radio console. "All right, do
you have those calculations ready?"
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