"It is you that make the mistake now," he said, "for the mere form of
marriage is nothing but the outward evidence of a union that has
already taken place. The first is the vow before God--not the latter.
I understand why you think all this; clergymen have so long been called
upon to officiate at marriage rites that, with the fatherly assumption
notable in the order all the world over, they have grown to regard
themselves as the especial and heaven-appointed guardians of the
institution. It is all so grotesque when one remembers how ready they
are to 'solemnize'--save the mark!--marriage, no matter what the
conditions. Have the candidates to be known as right and fitting
persons? Is there even the simplest formula of preparatory
examination? None! Two wholly unsuited people may rush into
marriage--and misery--any day by simply presenting themselves before a
sleek-faced person who mumbles drowsily over their clasped hands, and
calls it a vow before God!--as he hurries back to his dinner!"
Still she was silent.
An errand boy trudging by whistled a few bars of the wedding march,
doubtless heard that day at some open church door.
"Dear, there is a higher, holier law of the great Power, who made us
what we are, than this one of slavish obedience to a tradition. Why
must our feet go in the burning ruts?"
"It is not the well-worn ruts that burn, but the by-paths," she
answered, "and oh! _how_ they burn!"
"Let me lift you in my arms and carry you over them, then, that your
feet may not touch. Do not be unjust to yourself. Cannot you see how
right, how good it is? It is not as if I came to you from another
woman----"
The girl faced around on him almost fiercely.
"No, you could not be so bad as that! To have felt the morning kiss of
another woman, to have watched her good-night smile, and then to have
come to me--that would have been too base, too degrading--I should have
hated you because I despised you. I should have loathed you
instead----"
"Of loving me! Be honest and true, little Jean--you do care."
"Yes, I have cared."
"And do still?"
"Yes."
Her tone was as cold and as clear as the sound of an icicle striking
the frozen earth in the fall. It angered him, and his voice shook
roughly.
"A man who binds up his life in the love of a woman is a fool! Because
she is all the world to him, all he works to receive praise from, all
he fears in the blaming, he thinks her capable of as much love as
himself. And even as he watches, he sees her pass from fervor into
apathy. Her affection is but the dry husks of what he hoped to find.
You never cared!"
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