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"Mother, you won't die!" cried Griff, at a loss to meet this quiet
acceptance of the inevitable. It seemed so foreign to all the sick
woman's characteristics.
She looked at him with a whimsical, half-pathetic smile. "Don't try
to fool me, Griff; you should know how I hate it. Do you think I am
afraid?"
He made no answer, only pressed her hands a little closer in his own.
After a long silence she spoke again, in a soft, measured voice.
"I think people make far too much of dying, and the dread of facing the
Unknown. I am sorry to leave you, and I would stay if any effort could
keep me here; but I fear nothing. Perhaps I _hope_ more than my life
has given me any right to do. I never understood religion, Griff, and
I went my own way through everything, and I believe I have been a very
selfish, bad old woman."
"Mother----"
"Boy, I never would have you flatter me, and I don't mean to now. How
did you find Kate?"
"Well enough--quite well, dear. Don't worry about her."
"She will fret about me a good deal. Be very careful of her, Griff;
there are not many women in the world I should admit to be worthy of
you. You see what a foolish mother I am."
Griff did not understand how it came about, but his tears were pouring
fast on to the thin old hands. The mother ruffled away the hair from
his forehead, and comforted him with a hundred soothing gestures, laid
aside long ago with the end of his childhood. The dying strove to calm
the living.
"Come, dear, come. I am an old woman, and I had to go some time. Don't
fret so about it. I have had a good life, and you have been a good son
to me, Griff. We might almost have been lovers, you and I, from the way
we behaved at times."
She fell into a reverie, a little smile flitting now and then across
her lips as she recalled this or that pleasant memory. And Griff went
softly from the bedside; he could not bear up against the pathos of it
all. But she heard his footfall, faint as it was, and called him back.
"Only a word, dear, and then you can leave me to sleep. The end won't
be just yet, I think; you can come back for the good-bye. It is about
the child. Don't be too fearful about it; don't hedge it round with
carefulness, and shut out the fresh air from it. Kate will know what I
mean when it comes. A baby, Griff--one's own baby--seems so wonderful,
and frail, and precious, till one gets used to it. You must fight that
down, and try to believe it will grow without being shut up in a glass
case." She laughed, and her sharp old eyes fastened themselves on Griff
with a touch of roguishness in them. "If any one asks how I died, boy,
tell them that I died as I lived--trying to teach you good common
sense. And--yes, tell them this, too--I died glad of my life, and proud
of the grand old stock. You have the Lomax pride in you, marrow-deep:
cling to it, Griff, and pass it on to your children."
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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