She did not seem to be sure what the term meant.
"He ain’t so bad."
"Well, if he were dead," I tried again, "would you stay here with Mr.
Benson?"
"Sure," she said. "Sure!"
"You’re afraid of Blackie?"
She nodded.
"Well. Cheer up. He can’t hurt you here."
"He’d have me pinched," she insisted, doggedly. "He’s got a pull with
the cops. He’d sure have me sent to the Island, if I tried to shake
him."
"Look here,"—again I flashed my badge—"It’s gold. That means I’m the
same as a captain. I’ve got ten times more pull than Blackie. If he
gets gay, I’ll lock him up. I’ll plant a gun in his pocket and send him
up the river for concealed weapons. You don’t need to be afraid of
him."
"Gee," she said, "I’d like to stay. But he’d sure get me. He’s a bad
one."
"He’ll be a dead one," I said. "If he starts anything with a friend of
mine."
I talked a few minutes more, but not till I showed her a pair of
hand-cuffs, which I kept in my room by way of a curiosity, did she
really believe she was safe and begin to smile again.
Having established the family, I made an excuse to go out. I came back
late at night and found Benson sitting alone in front of the fire.
"She’s asleep," he said.
"Must have had a lot of excitement," I replied, "to be sleepy at this
hour."
Having spent all the day outdoors, tramping in the open air, my brain
had cleared a little. The thing had lost its distorted proportions, had
fallen into focus. I could not understand how the affair had seemed so
momentous to me. Such things, I knew very well, were happening on all
sides, all the time. I was sorry for Norman. He would take it
seriously and that, I felt, meant days of stress and sadness. My work
in the Tombs had made me realize more certainly than he could the
immense chances against his helping the girl. How many futile efforts I
had made at first to lend a hand to some of these unfortunate women! I
had given it up in defeat. For her, even if the powers of darkness
pulled her back at last, it would mean at least a little oasis of
comfort and consideration in the barren desert life the gods had mapped
out for her.
"There’s one thing, I must say for my soul’s good," Norman said. "It’s
a hard business, this analyzing of our motives. I’m sure I do want to
save her, if I can, from being a public prostitute. But it’s equally
true I want her for myself. I certainly despise this cadet, Blackie—but
it’s also true that I’m suddenly become just ordinarily, humanly jealous
of him. I don’t want to pretend that I’m wholly occupied in trying to
be God-like."
"Well—I suppose I’m a cynic," I said. "But I don’t expect any wonderful
reformation—in either of you. Only don’t be unfair to her—don’t expect
too much of her."
And so Nina became an accepted member of our household.
*V*
Norman certainly set earnestly about the work of filling the place in
Nina’s life previously held by Blackie.
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