Even before that age I began to wish for a book like the one I have
tried to write. I wanted to know how ordinary people lived. It was no
help in those days to read how this Cæsar or that came and saw and
conquered. I shared the ambitions of the boys about me. To be sure
there were day-dreaming moments when we planned to explore Central
Africa or found dynasties. But this was pure make-believe. We knew that
not one man in thousands wins fame. For each moment we dreamed of
greatness there were days on end when we looked out questioningly on the
real world. We got no answers from our teachers. Most of the boys who
were in school with me are today running a store, practicing law or
medicine. They were prepared for it by reading Plutarch in class and
Nick Carter on the sly.
As a youth I wanted of course to gain a comfortable living. I wanted
mildly to win some measure of distinction, but all this was subordinate
to a more definite desire to be a man, and not to be ashamed. A book
about the ordinary life I was to enter, would have been a God-send to
me.
This then is to be the story of my life as it appears to me now, and
how, in the face of the things which happened to me, I tried to be
decent.
I have only two apologies to offer. All the rest of my writing has been
scientific—on the subject of criminology. I am unpracticed in
narration. And I have been enough in courts to realize the difference
between "evidence" and "truth." At best I can only give "evidence."
Others who knew me would tell of my life differently, perhaps more
truly. But it will be as near truth as I can make it.
And now to my story.
*II*
My earliest distinct memory is of an undeserved flogging. But from this
grew my conception of Justice. It was, I think, my first abstract idea.
My parents died long before I can remember and I was brought up in the
home of the Rev. Josiah Drake, a Cumberland Presbyterian minister of the
Tennessee Mountains. He was my uncle, but I always called him "the
Father." He was the big fact of my childhood and my memory holds a more
vivid picture of him than of any person I have known since.
He was very tall, but stooped heavily. If he had shaved he would have
resembled Lincoln, and this, I suppose, is why he wore so long and full
a beard. For he was a Southerner and hated the Northern leader with all
the bitterness of the defeated. And yet he was a Christian. I have
never known one who served his God more earnestly, more devotedly. He
was a scholar of the old type. He knew his Latin and Greek and Hebrew.
And as those were rare accomplishments among the mountain clergy of
Tennessee it gave him a great prestige. In all but name he was the
Bishop of the country-side. His faith was that of Pym and Knox and
Jonathan Edwards, a militant Puritan, fearless before the world, abject
in humility before his God.
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