"Thieves?" Benson asked, with a ring of anger in his voice. "Do you
think there are no thieves but highway robbers?"—and then apparently
realizing the uselessness of arguing with such a man, he smiled blandly
and in a softer tone went on. "Besides some of us are foolish enough to
imagine that we also can do some good. Let’s not discuss that, we’d
rather keep our illusions. Won’t you tell us what you are teaching your
classes about Marx’s theory of surplus value? Of course I know that
phrase is taboo. But what terms do you use to describe the proceeds of
industrial robbery?"
I could not make up my mind whether the professor realized that Benson
was trying to insult him or whether he was afraid to tackle the
question. At all events he turned to Mrs. Dawn and changed the
conversation.
This little tilt gave me a great deal to think of. I did not like the
professor’s attitude towards life. But after all, what good were these
settlement workers doing? Again and again this question demanded an
answer. Sometimes I went out with Mr. Dawn to help in burying the dead.
I could see no adequate connection between his kindly words to the
bereaved and the hideous dragon of tuberculosis which stalked through
the crowded district. What good did Dawn’s ministrations do? Sometimes
I went out with Miss Bronson, the kindergartner and listened to her talk
to uncomprehending mothers about their duties to their children. What
could Miss Bronson accomplish by playing a few hours a day with the
youngsters who had to go to filthy homes? They were given a wholesome
lunch at the settlement. But the two other meals a day they must eat
poorly cooked, adulterated food. Sometimes I went out with Miss Cole,
the nurse, to visit her cases. It was hard for me to imagine anything
more futile than her single-handed struggle against unsanitary tenements
and unsanitary shops.
I remember especially one visit I made with her. It was the crisis for
me. The case was a child-birth. There were six other children, all in
one unventilated room, its single window looked out on a dark, choked
airshaft, and the father was a drunkard. I remember sitting there,
after the doctor had gone, holding the next youngest baby on my knee,
while Miss Cole was bathing the puny newcomer.
"Can’t you make him stop crying for a minute?" Miss Cole asked
nervously.
"No," I said with sudden rage. "I can’t. I wouldn’t if I could. Why
shouldn’t he cry? Why don’t the other little fools cry! Do you want
them to laugh?"
She stopped working with the baby and offered me a flask of brandy from
her bag. But brandy was not what I wanted. Of course I knew men sank
to the very dregs. But I had never realized that some are born there.
When she had done all she could for the mother and child, Miss Cole put
her things back in the bag and we started home. It was long after
midnight but the streets were still alive.
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