A moment of madness, and other stories (vol. 2 of 3)Marryat, Florence
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A moment of madness, and other stories (vol. 2 of 3)
Marryat, Florence
English fiction -- 19th century; Short stories, English
enjoyed every luxury consistent with our station in life. She had had
her flower-garden and her poultry and her pony-chair, and I my pets and
my piano and—my lover. Ah! as I stood at the wire-blinded windows of
Lady Cunningham’s dining-room that sad November afternoon, and recalled
these things, I knew by the pang which assailed me at the thought of
Bruce Armytage, which loss of them all had affected me most. My father
and mother, who from my youth up had so tenderly loved and guarded me,
were in their graves, and with them had vanished all the luxuries and
possessions of my early days. But though I stood there a penniless
orphan, with no joy in my present and very little hope in my future,
the tears had not rushed to my eyes until my memory had rested on Bruce
Armytage; and then they fell so thickly that they nearly blinded me; for
mingled with his memory came shame as well as regret, and to a woman
perhaps shame is the harder feeling of the two. His conduct had been so
very strange, so marvellously strange and unaccountable to me, that to
that day I had found no clue to it. When he first came down and took
lodgings in Fairmead—for the purpose of studying to pass his examination
for the law, he said—he had seemed so very, very fond of me that our
engagement followed on the avowal of his love as a matter of course.
But then his family interfered; they thought, perhaps, that he ought to
marry some one higher than myself, though my father was a gentleman, and
no man can be more; at any rate, _his_ father wrote to say that Bruce
was far too young (his age was then just twenty) to fix upon his choice
for life, and that no regular engagement must be made between us until
he returned from the two years’ foreign tour he was about to make. My
father and mother said that old Mr Armytage was right, and that in two
years’ time both I and my lover would be better able to form an opinion
on so serious a matter. Bruce and I declared it was all nonsense, that
fifty years of separation could make no difference to us, and that what
we felt then, we should feel to our lives’ end. And they smiled, the old
people, whilst our young hearts were being tortured, and talked about
the evanescence of youthful feelings, whilst we drank our first draught
of this world’s bitterness. How seldom can old people sympathise with
the young! How soon they become accustomed to the cold neutral tints
of middle age, and forget even the appearance of the warm fires of
youth at which they lighted those passions which time has reduced to
ashes! It was so with my parents: they were not unkind, but they were
unsympathetic; they rather hoped, upon the whole, that I should forget
Bruce Armytage; and, in order to accomplish their end, they pretended
to believe it. But he went, with the most passionate protestations upon
his lips, that as soon as he returned to England, no earthly power
should keep us separate; and he never came back to me again! My father
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