My father's succession to the title and estates changed all that. We
quitted Surrey for Yorkshire, and Wensley House, Portman Square, was a
step upwards from the barrack-like building which so admirably suited
Mr. Childe's requirements.
When I was at Sandhurst General Mensmore got into difficulties. He
quitted Surrey, and we gradually lost sight of him and his children.
Afterwards I knew that he struggled on for a few years, placed his son
in the army, and then came a complete collapse, ending in his death and
the boy's resignation of his commission. Of Gwendoline Mensmore's
whereabouts I knew nothing. Her memory never quitted me, but the new
interests in my life dulled it. I imagined that I could laugh at a
childish infatuation.
Then I married. I did so in obedience to my father's wishes, and Alice
was, I suppose, an ideal wife--far too ideal for a youngster of my lower
intellectual plane. I know now that I never had any real affection for
her. I was always somewhat awed by her loftier aspirations. My interests
lay in racing, hunting, sports generally, and having what I defined as
"a good time." She, though an excellent horsewoman, and in every sense
an admirable hostess, thought Newmarket vulgar, treated Ascot as a
social necessity, and turned up her eyebrows at me when I failed to see
any utility in schemes for the reclamation of the submerged tenth.
Thus, though we never quarrelled, we gradually drifted apart. She knew
she bored me if she asked me to inspect a model dwelling; I knew she
hated the people who were the companions of a coaching tour or a week at
Goodwood. Unfortunately, we were not blessed with offspring. Had it been
otherwise, we might have found a common object of interest in our
children.
Insensibly, we agreed to a separate existence. We lived together as
friends rather than as husband and wife. We parted without regret and
met without cordiality. Do not think we were unhappy. If our marriage
was not bliss, it was at least comfortable. I think my wife was proud of
my successes on the turf in a quiet kind of way, and I certainly was
proud of her and of the high reputation she enjoyed among all classes of
society. I even reverenced her for it, and I well knew that the
enthusiastic receptions given us by our Yorkshire tenantry were not due
to my efforts in their behalf, but to hers.
So we lived for nearly six years, and so we might have continued for
sixty had I not met Gwendoline Mensmore again, under vastly changed
circumstances. She was a chorus-girl in a variety theatre, earning a
poor living under wretched conditions. I discovered the fact by mere
chance.
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