We had returned, little by little, to our starting point. The young
women joined us near the rose-garden. A different light had replaced
the springtime brilliance that surrounded us. The real morning had just
been born, a clear, cold winter morning. I wished to pluck a rose,
but they disappeared as I stretched out my hand. Elise took my arm and
pressed close to me.
ELISE
I am cold.
I doubted her divinity, I doubted myself, and the enchanted, luminous
night I had just lived. My master's last words were disturbing the
certainty that he had at first established in my mind. I, who had
believed myself a god, became again a man.
HE
That is the effect of doubt. Then you no longer believe in me?
I
I believe in you.
Instantly, things recovered their magical appearance, and I was
happy again. I gently pressed Elise's arm, and she looked at me with
tenderness.
Meanwhile, the two young friends, who were walking before us, had
come upon the steps of the Museum. We followed them. They examined in
silence the cold nudity of all those women of stone, but sometimes I
heard them laugh.
ELISE
And so these are your women.
I
They are not our women. These figures represent our ideal of the
goddesses.
ELISE
Truly, this one is like me.
I
There are women as beautiful as that among us, but one does not know
them. Each one of us thinks he has held in his arms the most beautiful
woman in the world; when he reflects, he is no longer very sure of
it, for, in the depths of his desire, an image ceaselessly forms, and
ceaselessly vanishes, whose beauty no created thing could equal.
ELISE
So reality always deceives you. How do you manage to be happy?
I
We have desire.
I had spoken like a man, and not like one whose mistress is an
immortal. Elise seemed indifferent to the obscure sorrow that darkened
my words.
My nature now was double. When I thought of my master, of Elise, of the
hours passed in the garden, I felt that I was caressed and upheld by
warm waves of joy; when I considered the things of earth, I was cold,
and I was sorrowful.
Elise left me once more to go and join her companions. My master called
me. He was seated at the entrance to the hall, and was looking at
nothing.
HE
I have still a few words to say to you, and these are the most
important. You must forget our conversation.
I
Master, it is impossible. It is part of myself, it has entered into my
flesh, into my blood, into my bones.
HE
Ah, well, you shall know then that I could have told you the exact
opposite, and that that also would have been the truth. Another god may
descend and speak to you and give you other teaching. In which will
you put your trust?
I
Master, you disturb me. Can such a miracle be repeated?
HE
When one believes in a miracle, it may become a daily occurrence. You
see, you would do better to forget.
I
I shall not forget.
HE
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