Johanna looked at her in amazement. "Learn nothing?" she repeated. "You
do not suppose that I can marry Otto? Magelone has taken my place."
"Child, I told you that Otto does not love Magelone," Aunt Thekla
replied. "And she does not love him,--not enough at least to endure for
his sake her grandfather's anger." And, clasping Johanna's hands in her
own, the old lady added, with tearful, imploring eyes, "Think what you
are doing. The happiness or misery of the whole family is in your hands.
If you cannot forgive, Johann Leopold will lose his betrothed, Otto's
and Magelone's lives will be ruined, whether they marry or not, and my
brother, who has made the happiness and honour of his house his sole
care, will see it in his old age brought to disgrace----"
"If I could but spare him!" exclaimed Johanna. Here at last was a word
spoken in kindness. Aunt Thekla took courage again. "You can if you
choose," she said, and dried her eyes. "Believe me, child, those who
forgive are blessed indeed when they can forgive and forget."
"Forgive and forget!" Johanna repeated. "Yes, it would be a blessing;
but forgetfulness cannot be forced, and if I could forgive and overcome
in myself all bitterness, the old confidence would not return----"
"Only try it!" Aunt Thekla interrupted her. "How many women have
forgiven some fickleness or unfaithfulness in their lovers and have been
happy wives! Remember, 'Love beareth all things, believeth all things,
hopeth all things, endureth all things.'"
"And 'rejoiceth in the truth,'" Johanna said, her features taking on
their former rigidity. "An error might be forgotten, but what separates
Otto and myself forever is his falsehood. If you knew how degraded I
feel by it; how petty, suspicious, evil-minded it makes me. To shield
Magelone and himself from his grandfather's anger he betrothed himself
to me; for the same reason he seeks a reconciliation with me now; and
perhaps--who knows?--the possession of Tannhagen adds weight to the
scale. Tell me yourself, Aunt Thekla, can I regard as my lord and master
the man of whom I think thus?"
Johanna arose, went to the window, and drew aside the curtains. There it
was again, the pitiless sunshine. It reached her very heart through her
eyes, and revealed the lovely and yet terrible picture of the pair
beneath the forest shades. If she could but be spared that sight! She
would rather see nothing, nothing.
A light touch roused her. Aunt Thekla had followed her, and now laid her
hand upon her arm. "What answer shall I take to Otto?" she asked. "Be
kind, be sensible. Reflect; the banns are to be published for the first
time the day after to-morrow----"
"It must not come to that!" Johanna interrupted her. "Tell Otto that I
agree to any method by which he, without implicating Magelone or
himself, can dissolve our engagement----"
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