Aunt Thekla sighed. It grieved her that the young girl had so little
confidence in her, but it should not deter her. "Come, sit down by me; I
want to talk with you," she said, taking her seat on the lounge. And
when Johanna mechanically obeyed, she added, "You need put no force upon
yourself; Otto has made a frank confession to me."
"Scarcely frank!" Johanna said, contemptuously.
"You do him injustice!" Aunt Thekla cried. "He said not one word to
excuse himself; on the contrary, he accused himself bitterly. If you
could have heard how he repents and longs for your forgiveness, you
would grant it him with all your heart."
"I cannot," Johanna said, without looking up.
"Oh, do not say that! You not only can, but you must forgive. Do we not
pray every day, 'Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive them that
trespass against us'?"
"I cannot," Johanna repeated.
For a while both were silent; then Aunt Thekla looked up timidly at her
niece and said, "Do not misunderstand me if I continue to plead for
Otto. I sympathize with you; I can understand how his folly has offended
you."
"Offended, do you call it?" Johanna interrupted her. "He has insulted
me, and poisoned my life and my soul!"
"So it seems to you now," said her aunt. "But you will learn to regard
it differently; you will feel otherwise and judge otherwise. Believe me,
my child, Otto is worthy of your forgiveness, and he loves you so----"
Johanna sprang to her feet. "Aunt, I cannot listen to you!" she cried,
pressing her hands to her throbbing temples. "You forget that a few
hours ago I saw with my own eyes that Otto--that Magelone----And you
talk of forgiveness, of love! Oh, everything is hateful in my
sight!--life--myself----"
She sank into a chair, and, with a groan, covered her eyes with her
hand.
Aunt Thekla shed tears, and, after a long pause, went on: "If you would
let me talk to you, I know I could do you good. I do not want to
torment you; I only want to repeat Otto's message to you. 'Tell
Johanna'--these are his very words; but to appreciate them you should
have seen the entreaty in his eyes and heard the tone of his
voice--'tell Johanna that I love her more than ever; that I have loved
her from the moment when I first knew her----'"
"Oh, aunt!" Johanna broke in upon her words, "can you tell me that? Can
you suppose that can console me? If he had told me that Magelone's
charms were irresistible for him, and had extinguished his love for me,
I could have understood him, and without reproaching him I should have
submitted as to the inevitable. But since he has deceived Magelone and
lied to her as he has to me, where shall I look for truth? What can I
believe? Where find a stay?"
The old lady had no fitting reply to this. "I wish you could see matters
in another light," she said, after a long pause for reflection; "and I
hope you will do so in time. But now what is to be done if you refuse
Otto's entreaty for forgiveness? Of course my brother must learn nothing
of this----"
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