The Freiherr, who was again pacing to and fro, waved his hand in sign of
disapproval. "I do not trust the fellow," he murmured; and then went on
aloud, "Why discuss matters which are quite out of the question? You are
the heir, and the heir you will remain, even although"--he hesitated a
moment--"even although you should decide not to marry. I can transfer to
you the work of my life in full confidence that you will continue it
after my own fashion. I rely upon you to do so, difficult as you may
find it, and even although the task requires you to resign one or
another of your own inclinations. A lofty position in this world entails
upon us certain duties. Men of our rank, my dear boy, cannot choose a
sphere of action. We are born into it, and it is our duty--we owe it to
ourselves--to shape ourselves to it to the best of our ability."
Johann Leopold looked down; he breathed heavily, and his lips were
tightly compressed. He had laboured hard for months to form a
resolution, and when it was formed to carry it out, and now he
perceived, with a kind of terror, that his grandfather's words had
shaken his decision. Was it not as the Freiherr said? Was it not a
cowardly desertion of the post which fate had accorded him to resign the
inheritance of his ancestors, and to break with the duties and
traditions of his rank and family? But besides his grandfather's voice
others were speaking aloud within him, requiring as urgently that he
should abide by what he thought right. When the Freiherr paused before
him, saying, "I trust, Johann Leopold, that I may rely upon you," he
looked up; he was not yet clear in his mind, and in every way strength
failed him for a final decision. "I will try to get well," he replied,
although he did not believe in the possibility of recovery.
His grandfather grasped his hand. "That's right, my boy! Only try, and
you will do it!" he exclaimed, with a joyous hopefulness that, old as he
was, always lent him a certain youthful freshness. "Let us have no
hypochondriacal complaints,--no morbid self-examinations. It is well for
you to go away for a while; it will give you something else to think
of. Now for your preparations for your journey, that you may go as soon
as possible."
The young man then confessed that, relying upon his grandfather's
consent, he had already empowered Dr. Werner to arrange for his journey
as far as possible; all that remained to be done he would himself attend
to in Vienna, where he wanted to pass a few days.
"It would be best to follow Dr. Werner on the day after to-morrow," he
added. "The vessel sails from Trieste on the 14th of this month.
Everything here is arranged and attended to."
The Freiherr was surprised; he had not looked for so speedy a departure,
but he was ashamed to seem averse to it.
"Well, then, the day after to-morrow," he said; "only bear up, my boy,
against the women's tears."
"No one will grieve," Johann Leopold replied, with a melancholy smile.
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