my old acquaintances with whom at the charitable and other gatherings
where we met I had resumed the associations of four years ago; and I was
struck by the serious spirit that now seemed to determine their actions.
It was clear to me that earnest-minded people existed among the very
wealthy no less than among those less fortunately circumstanced; and as
this grew more apparent, I began to catch a glimpse of what my father
had meant in speaking of wealth as the power and possibility of the
world. Was it not essential to leisure; and leisure to refinement and
culture? And where necessity ceased to control action, ought there not
to be a greater chance for excellence and progress?
These growing impressions served to temper the almost morbid tendency of
my thoughts to the extent that I have indicated. We gave a grand ball,
and under the stimulus of the cordial welcome given me I became the
gayest of the gay, and surprised not only my old acquaintances but
myself by the vivacity and desire to please of which I proved capable.
Without undue confidence, I can say that I achieved a triumph, and put
to rout the various uncomplimentary conjectures that the world had
hazarded in regard to me. Society opened its arms to me as a returning
prodigal, and my revulsion of feeling was all the more spontaneous from
the fact, that, if some of my former acquaintances were as frivolous as
ever, they had learned to conceal their emptiness by an adaptability
which made them agreeable companions. There was a keen satisfaction,
too, in the consciousness which became mine, as I went from house to
house during the following weeks, that I excelled the most of them in
the power to make myself agreeable. The reading and study of the past
few years enabled me to shine as a conversationalist, and in my present
regenerated mood I had, on the other hand, no temptation to play the
pedant or moralist. I tried to be amusing and to appear clever; and I
was pleased to read a favorable verdict upon my effort in the attentions
of men as a rule unsusceptible, and in the amazed countenance of Aunt
Helen.
Her satisfaction at the course of events was not disguised; but she was
diplomatic enough, in her conversations with me, not to take to
herself the glory of the evolution. She contented herself by way of
recrimination in such expressions as--"To think, Virginia, how near you
came to throwing yourself away!" and, "It takes a great load off my mind
to see you yourself once again." But after the first few entertainments
at which we were present together, I often caught her looking at me with
a sort of wonder, as though she could scarcely believe that the
brilliant young person whose reappearance in the social world was the
sensation of a successful season could really be her niece.
One evening as we were sitting after our return from an especially
pleasant dinner-party, Aunt Helen surveyed me contentedly through her
eye-glass, and said:--
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