Her new friends did not talk religion to her--that would at once have
repelled her,--they lived religion. Their lives were obviously the
fruit of an unseen deep root. Amalie asked no questions, she but
basked in this sunny atmosphere of light and life, from which she
felt it impossible to tear herself away. She rented a small
country-place, known as Angelmodde, in the neighborhood of Münster;
and now at length the days of real education had begun. To her own
children, Mimi and Mitri, were added Amalie von Schmettau, who
afterward became a nun in Vienna; George, a son of the celebrated
Jakobi; and the Droste-Vischerings, one of whom became dean, the
other bishop of Münster.
The Princess, in her anxious search after truth and goodness, had
lost none of her old sprightliness and charm. Her society to the end
was eagerly courted by all the best and most distinguished men of her
time. But, strange to say, even yet Amalie continued to believe she
was attracted to Fürstenberg and her new friends in spite of, rather
than because of, their religion. "I could not," she once wrote,
"blind myself to the great views and principles of Herr von
Fürstenberg; but I felt I must forgive him his Christianity on the
score of early education and prejudice. I had started my friendship
by frankly asking him kindly not to convert me, as in all that
concerned Almighty God I could stand no meddling; that I did not fail
to pray to Him for light, and at the same time kept my heart open to
receive it." Hence even then there could be no question of definite
dogmatic Christian teaching in the education of her own and her
adopted children.
Later she mourned that her want of faith had deprived the children's
earlier years of the blessed knowledge of Christ. Once, when
speaking of a family singularly fortunate in the way the sons had
turned out, she unhesitatingly ascribed it to their early training in
piety and devotion; adding that what she had obtained only through
infinite pains and labor, these Christian parents had effected with
comparatively little or no trouble.
But a practical difficulty now arose. What were the children, no
longer little children, to be taught about religion? It was the very
last subject she would entrust to the teaching of a stranger; yet
what did she herself know or believe about it? But at length she
solved the vexed problem by resolving to teach them "historical
Christianity," as she called it, leaving them free to choose their
own religion as they grew up. But even for this she had to qualify
herself, and with her usual whole-heartedness she threw herself into
a most careful and conscientious study of the Bible, especially of
the New Testament.
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