A Secret Inheritance (Volume 1 of 3)Farjeon, B. L. (Benjamin Leopold)
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A Secret Inheritance (Volume 1 of 3)
Farjeon, B. L. (Benjamin Leopold)
Mystery fiction; Sleepwalking -- Fiction
It may appear strange to those who are fond of friendships, and who
cling ardently to them, to learn that, despite my loneliness, I had
not a dull moment. Nature was very beautiful to my soul, its forms and
changes most entrancing. I cared little for the great towns and
cities. The modes of life therein, especially those which were
exemplified by the absurd lengths and extravagances to which fashion
drives its votaries, excited in me a very sincere contempt, and I was
amazed that people could be so blind to the sweetest joys of
existence. I visited the theatres, but they had, for the most part, no
fascination for me. I saw great actresses associated with buffoons,
and often themselves buffooning; I followed, at first with interest,
the efforts of a be-puffed actress, who rose to the terrors and the
beauties of her part in one fine scene, and did not consider the rest
of her mimic life, as depicted on the boards, worth the trouble of
consistency; I was present at the performance of dramas which were
absolutely false in their action and sentiment. What pleased me best
were the short poetical episodes, occupying less than an hour in their
representation, and in which two or three good actors sustained and
preserved the unities in excellent style. But these were side dishes,
and only served to bring into stronger relief the larger and grosser
fare provided for the intellectual education of the masses. I went to
the opera, and could only enjoy it by shutting my eyes, so many
absurdities were forced upon my sight: and as this drew unpleasant
attention upon me, I was compelled to deprive myself of the enjoyment.
I strolled into the gambling saloons, and gazed in amazement upon the
faces of men and women in which the lowest passions were depicted.
Human nature in those places was degraded and belittled. "Is there
some mysterious hidden sweetness in this many-sided frenzy?" I asked
myself, and I staked my money, and endeavoured to discover it; but the
game did not stir my pulses; I lost or won with indifference. I soon
tired of it, and bade adieu to the rooms, with a sigh of compassion
and contempt for the slaves who fretted their hearts therein.
My chiefest pleasures were experienced in small villages in mountain
and valley, where there was so little attraction for the ordinary
tourist that he seldom lingered there. I delighted in primitiveness
and simplicity, where human baseness had the fewest opportunities to
thrive, and where human goodness was the least likely to be spoilt by
publicity. It was in these places that I came to the conclusion that
the largest amount of happiness is to be found among small
communities.
But although I was consistent, up to a certain period, in declining
all offers of intimacy and friendship, it happened that I was to come
into contact with a man for whom, in a short space of time, I grew to
have a very close regard. His name was Louis, by profession a doctor,
by descent a German.
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