A Secret Service: Being Strange Tales of a NihilistLe Queux, William
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A Secret Service: Being Strange Tales of a Nihilist
Le Queux, William
Nihilism -- Fiction; Russia -- Politics and government -- 1801-1917 -- Fiction
I admit that I loved her madly, passionately. Overwhelmed by the
contemplation of her beauty, enchanted by the magic of her voice, which
made the sweetest music out of the merest phrases, I thought of nought
but her, and was only happy when at her side. Yet when I remembered the
difference in our social position, and her marriage with the Prince, I
was almost beside myself with despair; I knew that mine was an adoration
that could only end in unhappiness.
Involuntarily my hand touched my pocket and struck something hard. I drew
it away in horror. What terrible irony of fate! The woman I loved dearer
than life was doomed to die by my hand!
She had been gazing dreamily out of the window, when suddenly with a
mischievous smile she exclaimed—
“You are very silent, m’sieur.”
I scarcely know what prompted me, but, jumping up quickly, and grasping
her tiny, bejewelled hand, I raised it to my lips and in English poured
forth a declaration of my love.
She trembled. Her breath came and went in short, quick gasps, but she did
not attempt to arrest the flood of passionate words that escaped me. Ere
I had concluded, my heart was filled with joy, for I saw my passion was
reciprocated.
Vainly striving to overcome her emotion, she exclaimed excitedly—
“I—I was unprepared—I did not think you loved me, Vladimir. Do you doubt
I care for you? Have you not seen it? _Mon Dieu!_ my married life has
been only a grim and dismal tragedy. I loved no man until I met you!”
“Do you really think sometimes of me, Princess?” I asked, scarcely
believing the truth.
“To you I am Irene,” she said in pretty broken English. “All my life has
been wasted hitherto. You have asked me; I have give you answer. I love
only you. Some day you will know me better. Now, you know me only for the
mad passion I bear for you. But yourself shall make satisfy of my past,
my truth, my honour, and—and I shall get—what you call—divorce from the
Prince, and we two will marry—eh? Of you I ask not one single question.
You are my lover, the only man for whom I have affection, and—and in
return I am your serf.”
She buried her flushed face upon my shoulder and sobbed.
Taking her in my arms, I swore to her everlasting constancy. All my heart
was in the declaration. In the glamour of that hour we were reckless and
egotistical as most lovers, heedless of the shadow that was growing up
behind the sunshine of our happy vows of undying affection. When she
grew calm, she looked up searchingly into my eyes and said: “You cannot
understand me. You do not know the bitterness of my life.”
“No, Irene. Tell me about yourself,” I said.
Hesitatingly she seated herself in a wicker chair, and motioned me to a
seat at her side.
“No, no,” I said, laughing. “At your feet, Princess; always at your
feet,” and, casting myself upon a low footstool, I took her hand in mine.
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