The breath that tarnishes the clear mirror of a noble damsel's name,
says and teaches that social feeling, brings dishonour to a noble race;
and she has failed in her duty to her race. But who could be injured by
any light word spoken or light thought of such an one as poor Paolina?
She was an "artist." What treason to art, what lese-majeste against the
beautiful in every one of its manifestations, to conceive that in that
fact any reason was to be found why a less nice conduct in such matters
should be expected of her! And yet, for reasons which it would take a
volume to elucidate, so it is, that in the countries where art is deemed
to be most at home, and where it is in the largest degree the occupation
of large sections of the people, it is deemed that a less strict rule
with reference to the matters under consideration is laid on them than
on others. What if a young female artist "perfectly free from ties," as
would be urged, and whose conduct in such a matter could hurt
nobody,--what if such an one chose to form a tie not recognized by the
Church? The Church herself would look very leniently on the venial
fault. And though Paolina was such as she has been described, it was
impossible but that such notions, not specially set forth or taught, but
pervading all the unconscious teaching of the world around her, should
have rendered her less sensitively anxious as to the possibility of
misconception lighting on her, than an equally good English girl would
have been. Could she have been indifferent to the danger that slander
should tarnish her good name? asks an Englishwoman. But the whole world
in which she lived would not have felt it to be slander. It would have
been too much in the ordinary course of things.
How Paolina felt in the matter, Ludovico was made to understand on that
evening which has been so often referred to; and the reader may gather
from the conversation that passed between them.
Paolina had worked hard all day. The mosaics in San Vitale were nearly
finished. Ludovico had been with her on her scaffolding during the few
hours of light of the short afternoon. He had become sensible that the
intercourse between him and Paolina had latterly been growing to be less
frank, unreserved, and easy than it had been. He had once been quite
sure that Paolina loved him with the whole force of a thoroughly virgin
heart. He had latterly begun almost to think that he had been mistaken
in her. She would turn from him. She would fall into long silences. She
was embarrassed in speaking to him; and it had often happened lately
that talk had passed between them, which had seemed as if they were
speaking at cross-purposes--as if there were something not understood or
misunderstood between them.
And Ludovico had come to the house in the Strada di Sta. Eufemia that
evening, safely relying on the expectation that the Signora Orsola would
go fast asleep, and determined to bring matters to an understanding
between him and Paolina.
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