left my brother's in June 1836, not decided what to do. Aware that in some branches I was not qualified sufficiently to take a young ladies' school, I went home not decided what to do, but thought I would go with a young lady that I was acquainted with in Westford under private instruction, and accordingly went and stayed with her till Fall. A new Precepter was about opening the Academy in Westford, and I resolved to go the Winter term, and accordingly provided myself with a boarding place at Mr Niehols, where I found it very pleasant. They were both pious and I became very much attached to Mrs N. and found the school very pleasant for the branches that I wished to pursue; but on account of a change in this family I was under the necessity of getting another boarding place; then I went to a Mr George Davis' where I had always been acquainted, and found every thing pleasant and was happy. But my health began to fail me, being troubled with the Ticdoloreux. Not having the means to continue any longer at school, so poor was my health at that time, I began to think of returning to Lowell; but about this time a book was circulating, relative to the day of Judgment being near at hand. I obtained it and read it, and found that it was nothing but explaining the Scriptures according to my view in a historical manner, or the preaching the Gospel in its purity. I felt prepared to meet Christ, but was often asked what I thought of it? I told them it was a sweet subject to me, for I longed to be with him who had loved me and given himself for me and was willing to do all for Him while I stayed upon the earth and did not know how I could alter my life if it was true, for if I was not prepared I should prepare myself. But I had already given my heart to the Lord and was trying to live to his honor and glory. The subject was very much agitated in Westford. I soon left and went to Lowell, and tried to obtain a book, but could not, and no one seemed to know any thing about it. I went into the factory to work, but soon an old acquaintance, Nancy Sanborn, come to see me. She had always anticipated going off to teach. We proposed opening a school in Lowell for young ladies, but my health was not good and I had nothing to do with, and something seemed to say to me, what you do, do quickly, for the end of all things is just at hand. I went to God in prayer to ask Him what to do. I listened to the Saviour's voice which constrained me to win souls to Christ by living out my religion around me by the way of the spirit and not of learning; but at that time God had suffered me to be carried away into Babylon and become a worshipper of the God of learning. My friend, Nancy Sanborn left me and returned home and I concluded to live in the factory for every plan that I laid seemed to be thwarted. I often had something given to me to do by God which I found was contrary to my carnal feelings. I boarded at this time with a Mrs King, on the Boot corporation.--My