of holidays with us in Fourteenth Street, and I think my first childish
conception of the enviable lot, formed amid these associations, was to
be so little fathered or mothered, so little sunk in the short range,
that the romance of life seemed to lie in some constant improvisation,
by vague overhovering authorities, of new situations and horizons. We
were intensely domesticated, yet for the very reason perhaps that we
felt our young bonds easy; and they were so easy compared to other small
plights of which we had stray glimpses that my first assured conception
of true richness was that we should be sent separately off among cold or
even cruel aliens in order to be there thrillingly homesick.
Homesickness was a luxury I remember craving from the tenderest age--a
luxury of which I was unnaturally, or at least prosaically, deprived.
Our motherless cousin Augustus Barker came up from Albany to the
Institution Charlier--unless it was, as I suspect, a still earlier
specimen, with a name that fades from me, of that type of French
establishment for boys which then and for years after so incongruously
flourished in New York; and though he professed a complete satisfaction
with pleasures tasted in our innocent society I felt that he was engaged
in a brave and strenuous adventure while we but hugged the comparatively
safe shore.
II
We were day-boys, William and I, at dispensaries of learning the number
and succession of which to-day excite my wonder; we couldn't have
changed oftener, it strikes me as I look back, if our presence had been
inveterately objected to, and yet I enjoy an inward certainty that, my
brother being vividly bright and I quite blankly innocuous, this
reproach was never brought home to our house. It was an humiliation to
me at first, small boys though we were, that our instructors kept being
instructresses and thereby a grave reflection both on our attainments
and our spirit. A bevy of these educative ladies passes before me, I
still possess their names; as for instance that of Mrs. Daly and that of
Miss Rogers (previously of the "Chelsea Female Institute," though at the
moment of Sixth Avenue this latter), whose benches indeed my brother
didn't haunt, but who handled us literally with gloves--I still see the
elegant objects as Miss Rogers beat time with a long black ferule to
some species of droning chant or chorus in which we spent most of our
hours; just as I see her very tall and straight and spare, in a light
blue dress, her firm face framed in long black glossy ringlets and the
stamp of the Chelsea Female Institute all over her. Mrs. Daly, clearly
the immediate successor to the nebulous Miss Bayou, remains quite
substantial--perhaps because the sphere of her small influence has
succeeded in not passing away, up to this present writing; so that in
certain notes on New York published a few years since I was moved to
refer to it with emotion as one of the small red houses on the south
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