Sir Wilfrid and Lady Speke had by this time gone up to town, leaving
the place, with many kind wishes for my early and complete recovery,
entirely at the disposal of myself and my unwearied nurse Edgar. So a
day was fixed for the arrival of Helen and her mother. On that
eventful afternoon Edgar settled me in a small sitting-room on the
same floor with the room I had been occupying, before starting for the
station. The blinds were drawn, and I sat with my back to this
carefully-softened light. I wished, now that the ordeal was getting so
near, that I had not let myself be dissuaded from my intention of
sneaking quietly away without showing my disfigured face to any one.
What was the use of my seeing the child again? I did indeed long
foolishly for a few last words with her since she had shown
unexpected depth of feeling towards me in my misfortune; but it could
not end, as Edgar still obstinately hoped, in a renewal of our
engagement, which I persisted in regarding as definitely broken. The
meeting was only for a farewell. I was ashamed of the artifices I had
used to conceal the traces of my accident, and I was feeling half
inclined to tear off my false ornaments and present myself in my true
hideousness, when the arrival of my visitors luckily stopped me. The
room where I sat was at the back of the house, so that I had no
warning of the return of the carriage until I heard Edgar's voice. I
sprang up with one last look of agony at my reflection in the glass,
which seemed to me at that moment a ghastly caricature of my old self,
and then sat nervously down again, feeling like a doomed wretch with
the executioner outside his cell.
The door opened, and Edgar bounded up to me, dragging Helen, who
seemed shy and nervous, forward on his arm.
'Here he is, Nellie. Getting well fast, you see. Where is mother? I
must fetch her up.'
I saw in a moment through the dear clumsy fellow's manoeuvres. He
prided himself on his strategy, fancying he had only to leave us
together for us to have a touching reconciliation. But I knew better.
I saw her turn pale and cling to her brother's arm, and I said
hastily--
'No, no. Lady Castleford is not far behind, you may be sure. I am glad
to see you, Lady Helen; it is very kind of you to come. It is
easier----'
'Helen has come to persuade you to get well in England among your
friends instead of going abroad to be ill among strangers,' said
Edgar, cutting me short. 'He's getting on well, isn't he, Helen?
Come, he's well enough to have his hand shaken now.'
He drew her forward, to my inexpressible pain, for I saw the
reluctance in her face. Before I could attempt a protest, a reassuring
word, she had held out her hand, which I timidly took. Then she lifted
her eyes to my face for the first time. For the first and last time I
saw the expression of the most vivid, most acute emotion on the fairy
face. The muscles were contracted, the pupils of the eyes were dilated
with intense horror.
'I am very glad----' she began.
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