A little figure in pale pink stuff sprang up from a seat in the corner
as we came in, letting a big volume of old-fashioned engravings fall
from her arms. It was Babiole, who had been too deep in her discovery
of a new book to expect us so soon. She gave a quick glance at the
window by which she had prepared a way of escape; but seeing that it
was too late, she came forward a few steps without confusion and held
out her hand to Fabian, who seemed much struck with the improvement
two years had brought about in her appearance. Then, after receiving
the greetings of the rest, she excused herself on the plea that her
mother was waiting for her at tea, and made a bow, in which most of us
saw a good deal of grace, to Maurice Browne, who held open the door
for her.
As Browne then made a rush to the piano, I lost no time in taking
Edgar on one side under pretence of showing him an article in a
review, and in unburdening myself to him with very little preface. I
was in love, hopelessly in love. He guessed with whom at once, but
did not understand my difficulty.
'She seems a modest, intelligent little girl; she has every reason to
be grateful to you, even fond of you. Why should you be so diffident?'
I explained that she was beautiful, romantic, inexperienced; that her
head was still full of silky-locked princes and moated castles, or
with creatures of her fancy little less impossible; all sorts of
dream-passions were seething in her girl's brain I knew, for I
understood the little creature with desperate clearness of vision
which only seemed to make her more inaccessible to me. If I could only
conquer that terrible diffidence, that overwhelming awe that her
fairy-like ignorance and innocence of the realities of life imposed
upon me, I felt that I could plead my cause with a fire and force that
would surmount even that ghastly obstacle of my hideous face; but
then, again, fire and force were no weapons to use against the
indifference of childlike innocence; and to ask her in cold blood to
marry me without making her heart speak first in my favour would be
monstrous. She had looked upon me till lately as she would have looked
upon her grandfather, and this unsatisfactory affection had given
place lately to a reserve which was even more unpromising. Edgar
listened to me, did not deny the enormous fascination of a young mind
one has one's self helped to form, but thought that I should resist
it, and was rather indignant that I had not taken the opportunity of
her father's visit to rid myself of mother and daughter together. He
inclined to the idea that the two unlucky women were imposing on my
generosity and were determined to make 'a good thing' out of me, and
it was not until I had spent some time in explaining minutely the
footing upon which we stood to one another that his prejudices began
to give way.
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