rustling brown oak leaves up Craigendarroch, and noticed how day by
day the mantle of snow on Lochnagar grew wider and ampler, and how the
soft wail of the wind among the fir-trees in summer-time had grown
into an angry and threatening roar, as if already hungering for those
days and nights of loud March when the tempest would tear up the young
saplings from the mountain-sides like reeds and hurl them down
pell-mell over the decaying trunks which already choked up the
hill-paths, and told of the storms of past years. She would look into
my face from time to time to see if I was happy, for she had got the
trick of reading through that ugly mask; if the look satisfied her,
she either talked or was silent as she pleased, but if she fancied she
detected the least sign of a cloud, she never rested until, by sweet
words and winning looks, she had driven it away.
I, poor devil, was of course happy after a very different fashion. The
blood has not yet cooled to any great extent at six and thirty, and
blue eyes that have haunted you for seven years lose none of their
witchery at that age, when the demon Reason throws his weight into the
scale on the side of Evil, and tells you that the years are flitting
by, carrying away the time for happiness, and that the beauty which
steeps you to the soul in longing has been left unheeded by its
possessor like a withered flower. But Babiole's perfect confidence was
her safeguard and mine, and like the wind among the pines, I kept my
tumults within due bounds. I was, however, occasionally distressed by
a consideration for which I had never cared a straw before--what the
neighbours would say. If I, an indifferent honest man, really had
some trouble in keeping unworthy thoughts and impulses down within me,
what sort of conduct these carrion-hunting idiots would ascribe to a
man, whom they looked upon as an importer of foreign vices and the
type of all that was godless and lawless, was pretty evident. They
would all, in a commonplace chorus, take the part of the commonplace
Miss Farington, and unite in condemnation of poor Babiole. Now no man
likes to let the reputation of his queen of the earth be pulled to
pieces by a cackling crew of idiots, and, therefore, though I had not
enough strength of mind to suggest giving up those treasured walks, I
began, torn by my struggling feelings, to look forward feverishly to
the letter which Fabian had promised to send off as soon as he knew on
what date he would be free to come north. His wife herself showed no
eagerness.
'He is the very worst of correspondents,' she said. 'He will probably
write a letter to say he is coming just before starting, post it at
one of the last stations he passes through, and arrive here before
it.'
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