For the first time I was sorry for Fabian. A serious fault committed
by a person whom accidents of birth or circumstance have brought near
to one's self sets one thinking of one's own 'near shaves,' and after
that the tide of mercy flows in steadily. How was I, who had never
been able to conquer my own love for an unattainable woman, to blame
this man of much more combustible temperament, whom I had myself
induced to form a marriage with a girl whom I had no means of knowing
to be first in his heart? I would take no high moral tone with him
now; I would speak to him frankly as man to man, hold myself
blameworthy for my own share in the unlucky matrimonial venture, and
appeal to the sense and kindness I knew he possessed not to let the
punishment for my indiscretion fall upon the only one of us three who
was entirely free from blame. There crossed my mind at this point of
my reflections an unpleasant remembrance of the manner in which
Fabian had received a somewhat similar appeal from me years ago, and
down at the bottom of my heart there lurked a conviction that he would
hear whatever I might say without offence, and neglect it without
scruple. However, it was impossible to be silent now; and as the gray
day dissolved into darkness, and the only light in the study, to which
I had retreated, came from the glowing peat-fire, I got up from the
old leather chair which was consecrated to my reveries, and with one
glance through the eastern window out at the great woolly flakes of
snow that were now falling thickly, I left the room and went in search
of Mrs. Ellmer.
I heard her voice in her daughter's room, and knocking at the door,
called to her softly. She came out at once, and by her gentle manner I
judged that she was already contrite for having treated me so
cavalierly at our late interview.
'How is Babiole?' I asked first.
'She is quiet now and much better, Mr. Maude. Would you like to see
her?'
'Well, no; I couldn't do her so much good as you can. I wanted to
speak to you. I've been thinking; of course Fabian wrote two letters,
and put them into the wrong envelopes. Then the letter he intended for
his wife told her when he was coming, while the other letter made an
appointment on the way. Can you find out by the letter which has come
to your hands when he expects to arrive here?'
'It was written the night before last; the appointment was for last
night,' answered she with a fresh access of acidity.
'Then he probably meant to come on here to-day. I think I'll go to
Ballater and meet the six o'clock train; I shall just have time. And
if he doesn't come by that I'll telegraph to Edinburgh. What address
does he give there?'
'Royal Hotel. But you don't suppose that he will dare to come on here
when he finds out what he has done?'
'I don't suppose he will find out till he gets here.'
'I hope, Mr. Maude, if he does come, you will persuade Babiole to show
a little spirit. She seems inclined at present to receive him back
like a lamb.'
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