Following on the heels of that, a sort of film came over the
performance, an intimation of our disgust in each other at the
connivance of wrongdoing. I remember, as we came up through the orchard
rather late, this feeling grew upon us: the sense of taint, of
cheapness, which swelled into a most abominable conviction of guilt as
we discovered old man Ross on the front porch talking to our father. And
then with what a heaviness of raw turnips and culpability we huddled in
about our mother, going with brisk movements to and fro getting supper,
and how she cuffed us out of her way, not knowing in the least what old
man Ross had come about. Finally the overwhelming consciousness of
publicity swooped down upon us at my father's coming in through the
door, very white and angry, wanting to know if this were true that he
had heard--and it was the utmost limit of opprobriousness that our
father should get to know of our misdeeds at all. Times before, when we
downrightly transgressed by eating wild crabs, or taking off our
stockings to wade in the brook too early in the season, we bore our
mother's strictures according to our several dispositions. Forester, I
remember, was troubled with sensibility and used fairly to give us over
to wrath by the advertisement of guilty behaviour. He had a vocation for
confession, wept copiously under whippings which did him a world of
good, and went about for days with a chastened manner which irritated me
excessively. I believe now that he was quite sincere in it, but there
was a feeling among the rest of us that he carried the admission of
culpability too far. Myself, since I never entered on disobedience
without having settled with myself that the fun of it would be worth the
pains, scorned repentance, and endured correction with a philosophy
which got me the reputation of being a hardened and froward child. That
we did not, on this basis, get into more serious scrapes was due to
Effie, who could never bear any sort of unpleasantness. Parents, if you
crossed them, had a way of making things so very unpleasant.
It was Effie who, if we went to the neighbours for a stated visit, kept
her eye upon the clock, and if she found us yielding to temptation, was
fertile in the invention of counter exploits just as exciting and quite
within the parental pale, and when we did fall, had a genius for
extrication as great as Forester's for propitiatory behaviour. So it
fell out that our piratical descent on Ross's field was our first
encounter with an order of things that transcended my mother's personal
jurisdiction.
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