"Jerry," I said, "I am convinced that something very nice is about to
happen to me. Run your hands over the tops of the grass here and you can
feel news of it coming up through the stems."
"Well, at any rate you can take it when it comes," he reminded me.
"There won't be anybody to be hurt by your good times but yourself."
"Jerry, is it as bad as ever?"
"So bad that if she doesn't let up on it soon I shall do something to
bring on a crisis."
"And spend the rest of your life regretting it. Besides there is Miss
Doran; you'd have to think of her." Miss Doran was a dancer with a
spirit in her feet and a South Jersey accent, whose effect on him Jerry
was translating into quite the best thing he had done. It wasn't,
however, that I cared in the least what became of her that I had thrown
out that saving suggestion, but because it had been little more than a
year since Jerry had disturbed the peace and broken the----not
heart----let us say the organ of her literary ineptitudes--of Mineola
Maxon Freear who had interviewed him once, and taken him with the snare
of a superior comprehension. Mineola had advanced ideas as to the
relation of the sexes, and a conviction that she was fitted to be the
mentor of a literary career, and had missed the point of Jerry's
philanderings quite as much as his wife missed them. With Mineola in
mind and the tragedy she came near making out of it for herself, I
ventured on a word of caution.
"You don't want to forget, Jerry, that there's one good thing about your
marriage; it keeps you from making another one just like it."
"You think I'd do that?"
"It is written in your forehead, Jerry, that you are to be attracted to
the sort of woman whom you have the least use for. The kind that would
make you a good wife, you couldn't possibly love well enough to live
with her."
"I could live with you," he affirmed.
"Then it would be because you have never been in love with me. Look
here, Jerry, what does the other all amount to? If you didn't have any
one ... like Miss Doran, I mean ... do you mean that you wouldn't write
plays at all?"
"I'd write them harder and I'd write them different. How can a man tell?
This thing _is_. Once you know it is to be had, you just can't hold back
from it."
"Not even if somebody else has to pay?"
"Why should they?" Jerry sat up and began to pull up the grass by the
roots and throw it about. "Why can't they see that all a man wants is to
do his work?" I could see at any rate that he was near the breaking
point, and I knew that if the break came from Jerry himself, it would
be irrevocable. That was what put me in the notion of going away
immediately. I had barely saved my face with Mrs. Jerry in the Mineola
affair, and I thought if there was to be another crisis I had better
clear out before it.
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