Poetry -- 20th century -- Periodicals; Short stories -- Periodicals
She winced as if I had struck her. “Oh!” she murmured. If she had been
the ordinary woman, who in every crisis with man instinctively resorts
to weakness’ strongest weakness, tears, I might have a very different
story to tell. But she fought back the tears in which her eyes were
swimming and gathered herself together. “That is brutal,” she said,
with not a touch of haughtiness, but not humbly, either. “But I deserve
it.”
“There was a time,” I went on, swept in a swift current of cold
rage--“there was a time when I would have taken you on almost any
terms. A man never makes a complete fool of himself about a woman but
once in his life, they say. I have done my time--and it is over.”
She sighed wearily. “Langdon came to see me soon after I left your
house and went to my uncle,” she said. “I will tell you what happened.”
“I do not wish to hear,” replied I. “I have been waiting impatiently
ever since you left for news of your plans.”
She grew white, and my heart smote me. She came into the room and
seated herself. “Won’t you stop, please, for a moment longer?” she
said. “I hope that, at least, we can part without bitterness. I
understand now that everything is over between us. A woman’s vanity
makes her belief that a man cares for her die hard. I am convinced
now--I assure you I am. I shall trouble you no more about the past. But
I have the right to ask you to hear me when I say that Langdon came,
and that I myself sent him away; sent him back to his wife.”
“Touching self-sacrifice,” said I, ironically.
“No,” she replied. “I cannot claim any credit. I sent him away only
because you and Alva had taught me how to judge him better. I do not
despise him as do you; I know too well what has made him what he is.
But I had to send him away.”
My comment was an incredulous look and shrug. “I must be going,” I said.
“You do not believe me?” she asked.
“In my place, would you believe?” replied I. “You say I have taught
you. Well, you have taught me, too--for instance, that your years and
years on your knees in the musty temple of conventionality before false
gods have made you--fit only for the Langdon sort of thing. You have
forgotten how to stand erect, and your eyes cannot bear the light.”
“I am sorry,” she said, slowly, hesitatingly, “that your faith in me
has died just when I might, perhaps, have justified it. Ours has been a
pitiful series of misunderstandings.”
“A trap! A trap!” I was warning myself. “You’ve been a fool long
enough, Blacklock.” And aloud I said: “Well, Anita, the series is ended
now. There’s no longer any occasion for our lying or posing to each
other. Any arrangements your uncle’s lawyers suggest will be made.”
I was bowing, to leave without shaking hands with her. But she would
not have it so. “Let us be friends, at least,” she said, stretching
out her long, slender arm and offering me her hand.
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