The question has to be twice repeated before the person to whom it is
addressed gives any sign of having heard it. His ears must be so deeply
embedded in the pillow that the passage to his hearing is blocked. It is
not till the interrogation is put a second time, in a louder key, and
accompanied by a not very gentle shake of the shoulder, that he at
length looks up, and reveals what Jim knows to be, and yet has some
difficulty in recognising, as the features of Byng--features so altered,
so distorted, so swollen by excessive weeping, that no one less
intimately acquainted with them than the person who has been already
contemplating them, under the influence of a variety of circumstances
for a couple of months, could possibly put the owner's name to them. Jim
has expected that his young friend would spend some portion of this day
in crying, knowing well both his powers of, and his taste for, "turning
on the water-works," as he but lately cruelly and uncivilly phrased it
to his own mind. But the warm tears of emotion, few and undisfiguring,
with which he had credited him, have not much kinship with the scalding
torrents that have made his handsome young eyes mere red blurs on his
ashen face, that have furrowed his cheeks, and damped his disordered
curls, and taken all the starch out of his immaculate "masher" collar.
They have wetted, too, into a state of almost pulp, a crumpled sheet of
note-paper, which his head seems to have been burrowing in, upon the
pillow.
"What does it mean?" repeats Burgoyne, for the third time, a hideous
fear assailing him, at the sight of the young man's anguish, that he
himself may have mistaken Annunziata's meaning; that her "gone" may have
stood for the final one; that some instant stroke may have snatched
lovely Elizabeth away, out of the world. Surely no catastrophe less than
death can account for such a metamorphosis as that wrought in Byng. "Why
do you look like that?" he goes on, his voice taking that accent of rage
which extreme fear sometimes gives. "Why do not you speak?"
The other, thus adjured, plainly makes a violent effort for
articulation; but his dry throat will let pass nothing but a senseless
sob.
"What does that paper mean?" goes on Burgoyne, realizing the impotence
of his friend to obey his behest, and rendered doubly terrified by it;
"what is it? what does it say? Does it--does it--explain anything?"
He points as he speaks to the blurred and rumpled _billet_, and Byng
catches it up convulsively, and thrusts it into his hand.
"It is the first letter I ever had from her," he says, the words rushing
out broken and scarcely intelligible upon a storm of sobs, and so flings
his head violently down upon the floor again in a new access of furious
weeping.
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