"And so she, with her lofty idea of self-sacrifice, immolates her own
happiness on the altar of her filial affection. It is just like
her!"--going off into a sort of rapture--"blind mole that I was not to
divine the motive, which her ineffable delicacy forbade her to put into
words. She thought she had a right to think that I should have
comprehended her without words!"
He has talked himself into a condition of such exalted confidence before
he reaches the end of this sentence that Jim is conscious of a certain
brutality in applying to him the douche contained in his next words.
"I do not know why you should credit Mrs. Le Marchant with such colossal
selfishness; she never used to be a selfish woman."
But Burgoyne's cold shower-bath does not appear even to damp the
shoulders for which it is intended.
"'Since you left me, taking no farewell,'"
murmurs Byng, beginning again to tramp up and down the little room, with
head thrown back and clasped hands high lifted; and in his rapt poet
voice:
"'Since you left me, taking no farewell,'
I must follow you, sweet! Despite your prohibition, I must follow you.
"'We two that with so many thousand sighs,
Did buy each other.'"
Then, coming abruptly down to prose--"Though they left no address, it
will of course be possible, easy, to trace them. I will go to the
station and make inquiries. They will have been seen. It is out of the
question that she can have passed unnoticed! No eye that has once been
enriched by the sight of her can have forgotten that heavenly vision. I
will telegraph to Bologna, to Milan, to Venice. Before night I shall
have learnt her whereabouts. I shall be in the train, following her
track. I shall be less than a day behind her. I shall fall at her feet,
I shall----"
"You are talking nonsense," answers Burgoyne impatiently; and yet with a
distinct shade of pity in his voice; "you cannot do anything of the
kind. When the poor woman has given so very unequivocal a proof of her
wish to avoid you, as is implied in leaving the place at a moment's
notice, without giving herself even time to pack her clothes, it is
impossible that you can force your company again upon her--it would be
persecution."
"And do you mean to tell me," asks Byng slowly, and breathing hard,
while the fanatical light dies out of his face, and leaves it chalk
white; "do you mean to say that I am to acquiesce, to sit down with my
hands before me, and submit without a struggle to the loss of----O my
God"--breaking out into an exceeding bitter cry--"why did you make me
"'so rich in having such a jewel,
As twenty seas, if all their sands were pearl,
The water nectar, and the rocks pure gold,'
if it were only to rob me of her?"
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