"'Oh, amiable lovely death!
Thou odoriferous stench, sound rottenness!'"
Jim shudders. Death has been so near to him for the last nine days, that
the terrific realism of Constance's apostrophe seems to be almost more
than he can bear.
"It is silliness to live when to live is a torment, and then, have we a
prescription to die, when death is our physician?" continues Byng loudly
and wildly, clasping his hands above his head, and apparently perfectly
indifferent as to whether the other inmates of the hotel, or passers-by
on the piazza, overhear him.
"If you stay here much longer you will spare yourself the trouble of
putting an end to your existence," replies Jim, glancing at the other's
head, exposed hatless to the scorch of the Tuscan sun, "for you will
certainly get a sunstroke."
So saying, he takes him quietly, yet decidedly, by the arm, and leads
him within the room. Either his matter-of-fact manner, or the sight of
his face, upon which, well-seasoned as it is, vigil and sorrow have
begun to write their unavoidable marks, brings the young madman back to
some measure of sense and self-control.
"I had no fixed intention," he says apologetically, still looking white
and wild; "you must not think I meant anything; but, even if I had--do
you know--have you ever happened to read anything about the statistics
of suicide? Do you know what an increasing number of people every year
find life intolerable?"
"I know that you are fast making _my_ life intolerable," answers Jim,
fixing his tired, sleepless eyes with melancholy severity upon his
companion. "Amelia is--you are as well aware of it as I am--probably
dying, and yet even now, thanks to you, into my thoughts of her is
continually pushing the fear that I may have to tell your mother that
you have had the colossal selfishness to rush out of the world, because,
for the first time in your pampered life, the toy you cried for has not
been put into your hand."
Burgoyne's hopes have not been high, as to any salutary result of his
own philippic while uttering it. But our words, sometimes, to our
surprise, turn from wooden swords to steel daggers in our hands. For a
moment Byng stands as if stunned; then he breaks into a tornado of sobs
and tears, such tears as have often before angered his friend, but which
now he welcomes the sight of, as perhaps precursors of a saner mood.
"Oh, my dear old chap!" he cries, catching at Jim's unresponsive hand,
and wringing it hard, "she is not dying _really_? You do not mean it?
You are only saying it to frighten me? Oh! dear, kind Amelia. Not dying!
not dying?"
"I do not know: to-day is the turning-point, they say; even now it may
have come."
"And why are not you with her? Why do not you go back to her?" cries
Byng, in a broken voice of passionate excitement, the tears still racing
down his face.
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