Then comes a dreadful and incongruous flash of that ridiculous, which is
the underlining to all our tragedies, across Jim's mind at this last
lament. The going, "taking no farewell," naturally seems to Sybilla the
most terrible feature in the whole case, to her who has so repeatedly
taken heartrending last farewells of her family.
"Who would ever have thought that I should have survived her?" pursues
Sybilla, still sobbing noisily, and without the least attempt at
self-control. Cecilia, who is sitting with her head on her arms resting
on the table, lifts her tear-blurred face and answers this apostrophe in
a voice choked with weeping.
"Jim always did; he always said that you would see us all out."
Again that dreadful impulse towards mirth assails Burgoyne. Is it
possible that, at such an hour, he can feel a temptation to laugh out
loud? But, later again, this horrible mood passes; later, when they have
all grown more composed, when their tears run more gently, when their
voices are less suffocated, and they are telling each other little
anecdotes of her, aiding each other's memories to recall half-effaced
traits of her homely kindness, of her noiseless self-denials, of her
deep still piety.
They bring out her photographs, mourning over their being so few, and
such old and long-ago ones. There are effigies by the dozen of Cecilia,
and even touching presentments of Sybilla stretched in wasted grace upon
her day bed; but it had never occurred to anyone--least of all to Amelia
herself--that there is any need for _her_ image to be perpetuated. And
now they are searching out, as treasures most precious, the scanty faded
likenesses that exist of her, planning how they can be enlarged, and
repeated, and daintily framed, and generally done homage and tender
reverence to.
Jim listens, occasionally putting in a low word or two, when appealed to
to confirm or correct the details of some little story about her. But it
seems to him as if his anguish only begins when the stream of their
reminiscences turns into the channel of her love for him.
"Oh, Jim, she _was_ fond of you! We were none of us anywhere, compared
to you; she worshipped the ground you trod upon. We all knew--did not
we, Sybilla?--did not we, father?--when you used to be away for so long,
and wrote to her so seldom----Oh, I know!"--hastily--"that you were not
to blame, that you were in out-of-the-way places, where there was no
post: but there were sometimes long gaps between your letters; and we
always knew--did not we?--when she had heard from you by her face, long
before she spoke."
Next it is--
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