In her voice is the same echo of some pitying sorrow that had before
offended him; but his interest is now too strung up for him to notice
it.
"I did not once close my eyes that night, and when I came down next
morning I had made up my mind to beg him to let me go home and ask
father to make everything right. I had such confidence that father could
set everything right. When I came into the sitting-room he was not
there. I waited for him, and after awhile the breakfast was brought up;
but still he did not come. I waited on. It seemed to me odd that, at
such a crisis, when we were both so miserable, he should be able to
oversleep himself I am afraid"--with an accent of most regretful
remorse--"that I did think hardly of him then. I looked at the clock; I
had been down an hour. I rang for the waiter, and asked him to go and
tell the gentleman this. He was so long in coming back that I lost
patience, and went out into the passage. I saw a little group of people
gathered round a door some way down it. They seemed to be whispering and
speaking excitedly, and one chambermaid was crying. In an instant I was
among them, through them, in the room. It was his bedroom. He was lying
half on, half off the bed. He had evidently not undressed all night, and
had taken off nothing but his coat. Before they could stop me--I believe
that they humanely tried--I had caught a glimpse of his face, and had
heard someone, as if at a great distance off, pronounce the word
'_dead_'! Then everything went away. I believe I crashed down like a
log, as Mr. Byng did. When next I came to myself mammy was leaning over
me. The people in the hotel had found a letter in my pocket, with my
address, and had telegraphed for her and father. They took me home. I do
not remember anything about that, but so I was told afterwards, as I was
also told that he had died of deep-seated heart-disease, aggravated by
his anxiety about me. I have never brought good-luck to anyone that had
to do with me!"
She is crying quietly now. Is it her tale or her tears that have
softened Jim's heart? He no longer grudges her that tribute to the lover
of her youth.
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