"I know it. I dare not say now, that I will keep my present frame of
mind until to-morrow; but I do feel as if a broad field were spread
before me, and a bright, bright heaven over-arched it. I can think
and speak of Ellen; I comfort myself by imagining that our separation
is for our mutual good--our characters required discipline, and dimly
in the future I see visions of reconciliation and re-union." Poor
boy! the idol was not gone yet! He sat in an attitude of careless
grace, his hand supporting his cheek, and the light falling upon his
upturned face. "Yes," he continued, thoughtfully. "I am convinced
that my life has been spared for some important end, and I will work
it out, whenever Providence designates the ways and means of its
accomplishment. I do not overlaud my ability; for youth, and health,
and energy, are almost omnipotent, and I am young, and strong, and
willing."
"You will not be offended if I aid you in the work?" asked Ida.
"No; and I anticipate your warning. You would say that self-conquest
lies at the base of all other victories. Ah! you will yet be ashamed of
your incredulity as to my regeneration. That is Charley's voice, he has
brought Lacy, too! I am glad!"
Ida was more than glad. She had seen him since their midnight walk,
but Josephine's presence had debarred her from even a look of
acknowledgment.
Mrs. Dana came down stairs, and completed the fireside group.
"What have you two been prosing about?" asked Charley, presently.
"I have been talking--Miss Ida listening," said Lynn. "She has no faith
in my determination to play 'good boy,' and as she knows me better than
I do myself, I am uneasy for the durability of my excellent resolve. Do
say something encouraging, Lacy."
"What is this reformation? of mind or manner?" inquired Morton.
"Mind, manner, heart and will. I have been a wilful troublesome child
all my life; I mean, from this time forward, to be a _man_."
"And how are you setting about it?"
"Oh! I am theorising now. I have no distinct object, except to do the
best I can; to mortify evil passions, to uproot selfish desires, to
foster the germs of good in myself and others."
Mr. Lacy smiled, a little sadly. "You have undertaken a Sisyphus task,
if you heave the stone up the hill in your own strength."
Lynn looked dismayed. "Yet it is our duty to do all this. The
Scriptures, for whose infallibility you contend, set a higher standard
of faith and practice than I have done."
"But they tell as in so many words, 'Ye can of yourselves do nothing.'
Who can say, 'I have made my heart clean--I am pure from my sin?'"
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