"Miss Ross would perhaps like to make some alteration in her dress,
Josephine," Mr. Read said; his manner testifying how necessary he
esteemed the proposed measure. Miss Read rang for a light, and
signified to Ida that she was ready to show her up stairs. Any change
from the bleak formality of their presence was a relief; and she longed
to be alone, if but for half an hour, that she might give way to the
emotions which had been rising and beating, through the livelong day,
choking and blinding her. But Miss Read summoned a servant, whom she
ordered to wait upon Miss Ross, now and in future; and seated herself
in a rocking-chair to watch the progress of the toilette. Mechanically
Ida went through the torture of dressing. There are times when it is
such;--when the manifold details, heretofore so engaging, are to the
preoccupied and suffering mind, like the thorn of the prickly-pear,
too small to be observed, but pricking burningly in every fibre and
pore. It was a woman--a sister--a girl as young as herself--perhaps
as tender-hearted, who sat there. Why not, with the unrepressed
sorrowfulness of a child, bury her face in her lap, and sob, "I have
lost my mother!" to be fondled and comforted into composure? It would
be sacrilege to ruffle the elegant propriety of her figure; and the
glassy eyes said, by their tearless stare,--"Between you and me there
is a great gulf _fixed_!" One weakness Ida could not overcome; the
repugnance to beholding herself in her mourning garments. They as yet
reminded her too vividly of the bier and the pall. She averted her
eyes, as she stood before the mirror, to put the finishing stroke to
her apparel. "I beg your pardon," said the calm voice of Josephine.
"Your collar is all awry. Permit me"--Ida submitted in silence, while
her volunteer assistant unpinned, and re-arranged the crape folds,
but as she gathered them under the mourning brooch, a tear, large and
pellucid, dropped upon her hand. It was but a drop of salt water to
Miss Read, and she wiped it off, as she asked her guest "to walk down
to tea." To the new-comer, the palatable food was as the apples of
Sodom--bitter ashes. She could not swallow or speak. Her companions
ate and chatted with great gusto. The ill-humour of an hour since
had passed away. This exemplary daughter was her father's idol, when
contrasted with other, and less favored girls. She was formed in his
image, and when the plastic mind was wax to receive, and adamant to
retain impressions, he moulded it after a pattern of his own. He taught
her deceit, under the name of self-control; heartlessness, he called
prudence; veiled distrust and misanthropy under clear-sightedness and
knowledge of human nature. All those holy and beautiful feelings which
evidence to man his kindred to his Divine model and Creator, he tossed
aside, with the sweeping condemnation--"romance and nonsense!" The
crying sin was to be "womanish;"--"woman" and "fool" were synonymes,
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account